adam bede(亚当[1].比德)-第46章
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“Then mind you fall in love in the right place； and don’t get a
wife who will drain your purse and make you niggardly in spite of
yourself。 My mother and I have a little discussion about you
sometimes： she says； ‘I ll never risk a single prophecy on Arthur
until I see the woman he falls in love with。’ She thinks your lady…
love will rule you as the moon rules the tides。 But I feel bound to
stand up for you； as my pupil you know； and I maintain that you’re
not of that watery quality。 So mind you don’t disgrace my
judgment。”
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Arthur winced under this speech； for keen old Mrs。 Irwine’s
opinion about him had the disagreeable effect of a sinister omen。
This； to be sure； was only another reason for persevering in his
intention； and getting an additional security against himself。
Nevertheless； at this point in the conversation； he was conscious of
increased disinclination to tell his story about Hetty。 He was of an
impressible nature； and lived a great deal in other people’s
opinions and feelings concerning himself； and the mere fact that
he was in the presence of an intimate friend； who had not the
slightest notion that he had had any such serious internal struggle
as he came to confide； rather shook his own belief in the
seriousness of the struggle。 It was not； after all； a thing to make a
fuss about； and what could Irwine do for him that he could not do
for himself？ He would go to Eagledale in spite of Meg’s lameness—
go on Rattler； and let Pym follow as well as he could on the old
hack。 That was his thought as he sugared his coffee； but the next
minute； as he was lifting the cup to his lips； he remembered how
thoroughly he had made up his mind last night to tell Irwine。 No！
He would not be vacillating again—he would do what he had
meant to do； this time。 So it would be well not to let the personal
tone of the conversation altogether drop。 If they went to quite
indifferent topics； his difficulty would be heightened。 It had
required no noticeable pause for this rush and rebound of feeling；
before he answered； “But I think it is hardly an argument against
a man’s general strength of character that he should be apt to be
mastered by love。 A fine constitution doesn’t insure one against
smallpox or any other of those inevitable diseases。 A man may be
very firm in other matters and yet be under a sort of witchery from
a woman。”
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“Yes； but there’s this difference between love and smallpox； or
bewitchment either—that if you detect the disease at an early
stage and try change of air； there is every chance of complete
escape without any further development of symptoms。 And there
are certain alternative doses which a man may administer to
himself by keeping unpleasant consequences before his mind： this
gives you a sort of smoked glass through which you may look at
the resplendent fair one and discern her true outline； though I’m
afraid； by the by； the smoked glass is apt to be missing just at the
moment it is most wanted。 I daresay； now； even a man fortified
with a knowledge of the classics might be lured into an imprudent
marriage； in spite of the warning given him by the chorus in the
Prometheus。”
The smile that flitted across Arthur’s face was a faint one； and
instead of following Mr。 Irwine’s playful lead； he said； quite
seriously—“Yes； that’s the worst of it。 It’s a desperately vexatious
thing； that after all one’s reflections and quiet determinations； we
should be ruled by moods that one can’t calculate on beforehand。 I
don’t think a man ought to be blamed so much if he is betrayed
into doing things in that way； in spite of his resolutions。”
“Ah； but the moods lie in his nature； my boy； just as much as his
reflections did； and more。 A man can never do anything at
variance with his own nature。 He carries within him the germ of
his most exceptional action； and if we wise people make eminent
fools of ourselves on any particular occasion； we must endure the
legitimate conclusion that we carry a few grains of folly to our
ounce of wisdom。”
“Well； but one may be betrayed into doing things by a
combination of circumstances； which one might never have done
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otherwise。”
“Why； yes； a man can’t very well steal a bank…note unless the
bank…note lies within convenient reach； but he won’t make us
think him an honest man because he begins to howl at the bank…
note for falling in his way。”
“But surely you don’t think a man who struggles against a
temptation into which he falls at last as bad as the man who never
struggles at all？”
“No； certainly； I pity him in proportion to his struggles； for they
foreshadow the inward suffering which is the worst form of
Nemesis。 Consequences are unpitying。 Our deeds carry their
terrible consequences； quite apart from any fluctuations that went
before—consequences that are hardly ever confined to ourselves。
And it is best to fix our minds on that certainty； instead of
considering what may be the elements of excuse for us。 But I
never knew you so inclined for moral discussion； Arthur？ Is it
some danger of your own that you are considering in this
philosophical； general way？”
In asking this question； Mr。 Irwine pushed his plate away；
threw himself back in his chair； and looked straight at Arthur。 He
really suspected that Arthur wanted to tell him something； and
thought of smoothing the way for him by this direct question。 But
he was mistaken。 Brought suddenly and involuntarily to the brink
of confession； Arthur shrank back and felt less disposed towards it
than ever。 The conversation had taken a more serious tone than
he had intended—it would quite mislead Irwine—he would
imagine there was a deep passion for Hetty； while there was no
such thing。 He was conscious of colouring； and was annoyed at his
boyishness。
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“Oh no； no danger；” he said as indifferently as he could。 “I don’t
know that I am more liable to irresolution than other people； only
there are little incidents now and then that set one speculating on
what might happen in the future。”
Was there a motive at work under this strange reluctance of
Arthur’s which had a sort of backstairs influence； not admitted to
himself？ Our mental business is carried on much in the same way
as the business of the State： a great deal of hard work is done by
agents who are not acknowledged。 In a piece of machinery； too； I
believe there is often a small unnoticeable wheel which has a great
deal to do with the motion of the large obvious ones。 Possibly
there was some such unrecognised agent secretly busy in Arthur’s
mind at this moment—possibly it was the fear lest he might
hereafter find the fact of having made a confession to the rector a
serious annoyance； in case he should not be able quite to carry out
his good resolutions？ I dare not assert that it was not so。 The
human soul is a very complex thing。
The idea of Hetty had just crossed Mr。 Irwine’s mind as he
looked inquiringly at Arthur； but his disclaiming indifferent
answer confirmed the thought which had quickly followed—that
there could be nothing serious in that direction。 There was no
probability that Arthur ever saw her except at church； and at her
own home under the eye of Mrs。 Poyser； and the hint he had given
Arthur about her the other day had no more serious meaning than
to prevent him from noticing her so as to rouse the little chit’s
vanity； and in this way perturb the rustic drama of her life。 Arthur
would soon join his regiment； and be far away： no； there could be
no danger in that quarter； even if Arthur’s character had not been
a strong security against it。 His honest； patronising pride in the
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good…will and respect of everybody about him was a safeguard
even against foolish romance； still more against a lower kind of
folly。 If there had been anything special on Arthur’s mind in the
previous conversation； it was clear he was not inclined to enter
into details； and Mr。 Irwine was too delicate to imply even a
friendly curiosity。 He perceived a change of subject would be
welcome； and said—
“By the way； Arthur； at your colonel’s birthday fête there were
some transparencies that made a great effect in honour of
Britannia； and Pitt； and the Loamshire Militia； and； above all； the
‘generous youth；’ the hero of the day。 Don’t you think you should
get up something of the same sort to astonish our weak minds？”
The opportunity was gone。 While Arthur was hesitating； the
rope to which he might
