resurrection(复活)-第79章

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of　the　existing　economic　conditions。　Having　seen　the　absurdity　of
the　religion　in　which　he　was　brought　up；　and　having　gained　with
great　effort；　and　at　first　with　fear；　but　later　with　rapture；
freedom　from　it；　he　did　not　tire　of　viciously　and　with　venom
ridiculing　priests　and　religious　dogmas；　as　if　wishing　to　revenge
himself　for　the　deception　that　had　been　practised　on　him。

He　was　ascetic　through　habit；　contented　himself　with　very　little；
and；　like　all　those　used　to　work　from　childhood　and　whose　muscles
have　been　developed；　he　could　work　much　and　easily；　and　was　quick
at　any　manual　labour；　but　what　he　valued　most　was　the　leisure　in
prisons　and　halting　stations；　which　enabled　him　to　continue　his
studies。　He　was　now　studying　the　first　volume　of　Karl　Marks's；
and　carefully　hid　the　book　in　his　sack　as　if　it　were　a　great
treasure。　He　behaved　with　reserve　and　indifference　to　all　his
comrades；　except　Novodvoroff；　to　whom　he　was　greatly　attached；
and　whose　arguments　on　all　subjects　he　accepted　as　unanswerable
truths。

He　had　an　indefinite　contempt　for　women；　whom　he　looked　upon　as　a
hindrance　in　all　necessary　business。　But　he　pitied　Maslova　and
was　gentle　with　her；　for　he　considered　her　an　example　of　the　way
the　lower　are　exploited　by　the　upper　classes。　The　same　reason
made　him　dislike　Nekhludoff；　so　that　he　talked　little　with　him；
and　never　pressed　Nekhludoff's　hand；　but　only　held　out　his　own　to
be　pressed　when　greeting　him。


CHAPTER　XIII。

LOVE　AFFAIRS　OF　THE　EXILES。

The　stove　had　burned　up　and　got　warm；　the　tea　was　made　and　poured
out　into　mugs　and　cups；　and　milk　was　added　to　it；　rusks；　fresh
rye　and　wheat　bread；　hard…boiled　eggs；　butter；　and　calf's　head
and　feet　were　placed　on　the　cloth。　Everybody　moved　towards　the
part　of　the　shelf　beds　which　took　the　place　of　the　table　and　sat
eating　and　talking。　Rintzeva　sat　on　a　box　pouring　out　the　tea。
The　rest　crowded　round　her；　only　Kryltzoff；　who　had　taken　off　his
wet　cloak　and　wrapped　himself　in　his　dry　plaid　and　lay　in　his　own
place　talking　to　Nekhludoff。

After　the　cold　and　damp　march　and　the　dirt　and　disorder　they　had
found　here；　and　after　the　pains　they　had　taken　to　get　it　tidy；
after　having　drunk　hot　tea　and　eaten；　they　were　all　in　the　best
and　brightest　of　spirits。

The　fact　that　the　tramp　of　feet；　the　screams　and　abuse　of　the
criminals；　reached　them　through　the　wall；　reminding　them　of　their
surroundings；　seemed　only　to　increase　the　sense　of　coziness。　As
on　an　island　in　the　midst　of　the　sea；　these　people　felt
themselves　for　a　brief　interval　not　swamped　by　the　degradation
and　sufferings　which　surrounded　them；　this　made　their　spirits
rise；　and　excited　them。　They　talked　about　everything　except　their
present　position　and　that　which　awaited　them。　Then；　as　it
generally　happens　among　young　men；　and　women　especially；　if　they
are　forced　to　remain　together；　as　these　people　were；　all　sorts　of
agreements　and　disagreements　and　attractions；　curiously　blended；
had　sprung　up　among　them。　Almost　all　of　them　were　in　love。
Novodvoroff　was　in　love　with　the　pretty；　smiling　Grabetz。　This
Grabetz　was　a　young；　thoughtless　girl　who　had　gone　in　for　a
course　of　study；　perfectly　indifferent　to　revolutionary
questions；　but　succumbing　to　the　influence　of　the　day；　she
compromised　herself　in　some　way　and　was　exiled。　The　chief
interest　of　her　life　during　the　time　of　her　trial　in　prison　and
in　exile　was　her　success　with　men；　just　as　it　had　been　when　she
was　free。　Now　on　the　way　she　comforted　herself　with　the　fact　that
Novodvoroff　had　taken　a　fancy　to　her；　and　she　fell　in　love　with
him。　Vera　Doukhova；　who　was　very　prone　to　fall　in　love　herself；
but　did　not　awaken　love　in　others；　though　she　was　always　hoping
for　mutual　love；　was　sometimes　drawn　to　Nabatoff；　then　to
Novodvoroff。　Kryltzoff　felt　something　like　love　for　Mary
Pavlovna。　He　loved　her　with　a　man's　love；　but　knowing　how　she
regarded　this　sort　of　love；　hid　his　feelings　under　the　guise　of
friendship　and　gratitude　for　the　tenderness　with　which　she
attended　to　his　wants。　Nabatoff　and　Rintzeva　were　attached　to
each　other　by　very　complicated　ties。　Just　as　Mary　Pavlovna　was　a
perfectly　chaste　maiden；　in　the　same　way　Rintzeva　was　perfectly
chaste　as　her　own　husband's　wife。　When　only　a　schoolgirl　of
sixteen　she　fell　in　love　with　Rintzeff；　a　student　of　the
Petersburg　University；　and　married　him　before　he　left　the
university；　when　she　was　only　nineteen　years　old。　During　his
fourth　year　at　the　university　her　husband　had　become　involved　in
the　students'　rows；　was　exiled　from　Petersburg；　and　turned
revolutionist。　She　left　the　medical　courses　she　was　attending；
followed　him；　and　also　turned　revolutionist。　If　she　had　not
considered　her　husband　the　cleverest　and　best　of　men　she　would
not　have　fallen　in　love　with　him；　and　if　she　had　not　fallen　in
love　would　not　have　married；　but　having　fallen　in　love　and
married　him　whom　she　thought　the　best　and　cleverest　of　men；　she
naturally　looked　upon　life　and　its　aims　in　the　way　the　best　and
cleverest　of　men　looked　at　them。　At　first　he　thought　the　aim　of
life　was　to　learn；　and　she　looked　upon　study　as　the　aim　of　life。
He　became　a　revolutionist；　and　so　did　she。　She　could　demonstrate
very　clearly　that　the　existing　state　of　things　could　not　go　on；
and　that　it　was　everybody's　duty　to　fight　this　state　of　things
and　to　try　to　bring　about　conditions　in　which　the　individual
could　develop　freely；　etc。　And　she　imagined　that　she　really
thought　and　felt　all　this；　but　in　reality　she　only　regarded
everything　her　husband　thought　as　absolute　truth；　and　only　sought
for　perfect　agreement；　perfect　identification　of　her　own　soul
with　his　which　alone　could　give　her　full　moral　satisfaction。　The
parting　with　her　husband　and　their　child；　whom　her　mother　had
taken；　was　very　hard　to　bear；　but　she　bore　it　firmly　and　quietly；
since　it　was　for　her　husband's　sake　and　for　that　cause　which　she
had　not　the　slightest　doubt　was　true；　since　he　served　it。　She　was
always　with　her　husband　in　thoughts；　and　did　not　love　and　could
not　love　any　other　any　more　than　she　had　done　before。　But
Nabatoff's　devoted　and　pure　love　touched　and　excited　her。　This
moral；　firm　man；　her　husband's　friend；　tried　to　treat　her　as　a
sister；　but　something　more　appeared　in　his　behaviour　to　her；　and
this　something　frightened　them　both；　and　yet　gave　colour　to　their
life　of　hardship。

So　that　in　all　this　circle　only　Mary　Pavlovna　and　Kondratieff
were　quite　free　from　love　affairs。


CHAPTER　XIV。

CONVERSATIONS　IN　PRISON。

Expecting　to　have　a　private　talk　with　Katusha；　as　usual；　after
tea；　Nekhludoff　sat　by　the　side　of　Kryltzoff；　conversing　with
him。　Among　other　things　he　told　him　the　story　of　Makar's　crime
and　about　his　request　to　him。　Kryltzoff　listened　attentively；
gazing　at　Nekhludoff　with　glistening　eyes。

〃Yes；〃　said　Kryltzoff　suddenly；　〃I　often　think　that　here　we　are
going　side　by　side　with　them；　and　who　are　they？　The　same　for
whose　sake　we　are　going；　and　yet　we　not　only　do　not　know　them；
but　do　not　even　wish　to　know　them。　And　they；　even　worse　than
that；　they　hate　us　and　look　upon　us　as　enemies。　This　is
terrible。〃

〃There　is　nothing　terrible　about　it；〃　broke　in　Novodvoroff。　〃The
masses　always　worship　power　only。　The　government　is　in　power；　and
they　worship　it　and　hate　us。　To…morrow　we　shall　have　the　power；
and　they　will　worship　us；〃　he　said　with　his　grating　voice。　At
that　moment　a　volley　of　abuse　and　the　rattle　of　chains　sounded
from　behind　the　wall；　something　was　heard　thumping　against　it　and
screaming　and　shrieking；　some　one　was　being　beaten；　and　some　one
was　calling　out；　〃Murder！　help！〃

〃Hear　them；　the　beasts！　What　intercourse　can　there　be　between　us
and　such　as　them？〃　quietly　remarked　Novodvoroff。

〃You　call　them　beasts；　and　Nekhludoff　was　just　telling　me　about
such　an　action！〃　irritably　retorted　Kryltzoff；　and　went　on　to　say
how　Makar　was　risking　his　life　to　save　a　fellow…villager。　〃That
is　not　the　action　of　a　beast；　it　is　heroism。〃

〃Sentimentality！〃　Novodvoroff　ejaculated　ironically；　〃it　is
difficult　for　us　to　understand　the　emotions　of　these　people　and
the　motives　on　which　they　act。　You　see　generosity　in　the　act；　and
it　may　be　simply　jealousy　of　that　other　criminal。〃

〃How　is　it　that　you　never　wish　to　see　anything　good　in
another？　〃　Mary　Pavlovna　said　suddenly；　flaring　up。

〃How　can　one　see　what　does　not　exist！〃

〃How　does　it　not　exist；　when　a　man　risks　dying　a　terrible
death？〃

〃I　think；〃　said　Novodvoroff；　〃that　if　we　mean　to　do　our
work；　the　first　condition　is　that〃　（here　Kondratieff　put
down　the　book　he　was　reading　by　the　lamplight　and　began
to　listen　attentively　to　his　master's　words）　〃we　should　not
give　way　to　fancy；　but　look　at　things　as　they　are。　We　should
do　all　in　our　power　for　the　masses；　and　expect　nothing　in
return。　The　masses　can　only　be　the　object　of　our　activity；
but　cannot　be　our　fellow…workers　as　long　as　they　remain　in
that　state　of　inertia　they　are　in　at　present；〃　he　went　on；　as
if　delivering　a　lecture。　〃Therefore；　to　expect　help　from
them　before　the　process　of　developmentthat　process　which
we　are　preparing　them　forhas　taken　place　is　an　illusion。〃

〃What　process　of　development？　〃　Kryltzoff　began；　flushing　
all　over。　〃We　say　that　we　are　against　arbitrary　rule
and　despotism；　and　is　this　not　the　most　awful　despotism？〃

〃No　despotism　whatever；〃　quietly　rejoined　Novodvoroff。　〃I　am
only　saying　that　I　know　the　path　that　the　people　must　travel；　and
can　show　them　that　path。〃

〃But　how　can　you　be　sure　that　the　path　you　show　is　the　true　path？
Is　this　not　the　same　kind　of　despotism　that　lay　at　the　bottom　of
the　Inquisition；　all　persecutions；　and　the　great　revolution？
They；　too；　knew　the　one　true　way；　by　means　of　their　science。〃

〃Their　having　erred　is　no　proof　of　my　going　to　err；　besides；
there　is　a　great　difference　between　the　ravings　of　idealogues　and
the　facts　based　on　sound；　economic　science。〃　Novodvoroff's　voice
filled　the　room；　he　alone　was　speaking；　all　the　rest　were　silent。

〃They　are　always　disputing；〃　Mary　Pavlovna　said；　when　there　was　a
moment's　silence。

〃And　you　yourself；　what　do　you　think　about　it？〃　Nekhludoff　asked　her。

〃I　think　Kryltzoff　is　right　when　he　says　we　should　not　force　our
views　on　the　people。〃

〃And　you；　Katusha？　〃　asked　Nekhludoff　with　a　smile；
waiting　anxiously　for　her　answer；　fearing　she　would　say
something　awkward。

I　think　the　common　people　are　wronged；〃　she　said；　and　blushed
scarlet。　〃I　think　they　are　dreadfully　wronged。〃

〃That's　right；　Maslova；　quite　right；〃　cried　Nabatoff。　〃They　are
terribly　wronged；　the　people；　and　they　must　not　he　wronged；　and
therein　lies　the　whole　of　our　task。〃

〃A　curious　idea　of　the　object　of　revolution；〃　Novodvoroff
remarked　crossly；　and　began　to　smoke。

〃I　cannot　talk　to　him；〃　said　Kryltzoff　in　a　whisper；　and　was
silent。

〃And　it　is　much　better　not　to　talk；〃　Nekhludoff　said。


CHAPTER　XV。

NOVODVOROFF。

Although　Novodvoroff　was　highly　esteemed　of　all　the
revolutionists；　though　he　was　very　learned；　and　considered　very
wise；　Nekhludoff　reckoned　him　among　those　of　the　revolutionists
who；　being　below　the　average　moral　level；　were　very　far　below　it。
His　inner　life　was　of　a　nature　directly　opposite　to　that　of
Simonson's。