少年维特之烦恼(英文版)-第12章

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And　this　is　partly　true。　I　have　been　very　agreeable　lately，　as　it　was
not　in　my　power　to　be　otherwise。　I　have　，　moreover　，　a　deal　of　wit：
and　the　ladies　say　that　no　one　understands　flattery　better，　or　falsehoods
you　will　add；　since　the　one　acplishment　invariably　acpanies　the
other。　But　I　must　tell　you　of　Miss　B——。　She　has　abundance　of　soul，
which　flashes　from　her　deep　blue　eyes。　Her　rank　is　a　torment　to　her　，
and　satisfies　no　one　desire　of　her　heart。　She　would　gladly　retire　from
this　whirl　of　fashion　，　and　we　often　picture　to　ourselves　a　life　of　undisturbed
happiness　in　distant　scenes　of　rural　retirement　：　and　then　we　speak　of
you　，　my　dear　Charlotte；　for　she　knows　you，　and　renders　homage　to　your
merits；　but　her　homage　is　not　exacted，　but　voluntary，　she　loves　you，
and　delights　to　hear　you　made　the　subject　of　conversation。

　　Oh，　that　I　were　sitting　at　your　feet　in　your　favourite　little　room，
with　the　dear　children　playing　around　us！　If　they　became　troublesome
to　you，　I　would　tell　them　some　appalling　goblin　story；　and　they　would
crowd　round　me　with　silent　attention。　The　sun　is　setting　in　glory　；　his
last　rays　are　shining　on　the　snow　，　which　covers　the　face　of　the　country
：　the　storm　is　over，　and　I　must　return　to　my　dungeon。　Adieu　！——　Is
Albert　with　you　？　and　what　is　he　to　you？　God　forgive　the　question。

　　FEBRUARY　8。　For　a　week　past　we　have　had　the　most　wretched　weather
：　but　this　to　me　is　a　blessing　；　for，　during　my　residence　here　，　not
a　single　fine　day　has　beamed　from　the　heavens　，　but　has　been　lost　to
me　by　the　intrusion　of　somebody。　During　the　severity　of　rain，　sleet，
frost　，　and　storm，　I　congratulate　myself　that　it　cannot　be　worse　indoors
than　abroad　，　nor　worse　abroad　than　it　is　within　doors　；　and　so　I　bee
reconciled。　When　the　sun　rises　bright　in　the　morning，　and　promises　a
glorious　day，　I　never　omit　to　exclaim，　〃There　，　now，　they　have　another
blessing　from　Heaven，　which　they　will　be　sure　to　destroy　：　they　spoil
everything，——　health　，　fame　，　happiness，　amusement；　and　they　do
this　generally　through　folly，　ignorance，　or　imbecility，　and　always　，
according　to　their　own　account，　with　the　best　intentions　！〃　I　could
often　beseech　them，　on　my　bended　knees　，　to　be　less　resolved　upon　their
own　destruction。

　　FEBRUARY　17。　I　fear　that　my　ambassador　and　I　shall　not　continue　much
longer　together。　He　is　really　growing　past　endurance。　He　transacts　his
business　in　so　ridiculous　a　manner，　that　I　am　often　pelled　to　contradict
him　，　and　do　things　my　own　way　；　and　then　，　of　course，　he　thinks　them
very　ill　done。　He　plained　of　me　lately　on　this　account　at　court；　and
the　minister　gave　me　a　reprimand，——　a　gentle　one　it　is　true，　but　still
a　reprimand。　In　consequence　of　this　，　I　was　about　to　tender　my　resignation，
when　I　received　a　letter，　to　which　I　submitted　with　great　respect，　on
account　of　the　high　，　noble，　and　generous　spirit　which　dictated　it。
He　endeavoured　to　soothe　my　excessive　sensibility　，　paid　a　tribute　to
my　extreme　ideas　of　duty，　of　good　example，　and　of　perseverance　in　business，
as　the　fruit　of　my　youthful　ardour，　an　impulse　which　he　did　not　seek
to　destroy，　but　only　to　moderate　，　that　it　might　have　proper　play　and
be　productive　of　good。　So　now　I　am　at　rest　for　another　week　，　and　no
longer　at　variance　with　myself。　Content　and　peace　of　mind　are　valuable
things：　I　could　wish　，　my　dear　friend　，　that　these　precious　jewels
were　less　transitory。

　　FEBRUARY　20。　God　bless　you，　my　dear　friends，　and　may　he　grant　you
that　happiness　which　he　denies　to　me！

　　I　thank　you　，　Albert　，　for　having　deceived　me。　I　waited　for　the
news　that　your　wedding…day　was　fixed；　and　I　intended　on　that　day　，　with
solemnity　，　to　take　down　Charlotte's　profile　from　the　wall　，　and　to
bury　it　with　some　other　papers　I　possess。　You　are　now　united，　and　her
picture　still　remains　here。　Well，　let　it　remain！　Why　should　it　not？
I　know　that　I　am　still　one　of　your　society，　that　I　still　occupy　a　place
uninjured　in　Charlotte's　heart，　that　I　hold　the　second　place　therein
；　and　I　intend　to　keep　it。　Oh，　I　should　bee　mad　if　she　could　forget！
Albert，　that　thought　is　hell　！　Farewell　，　Albert　farewell，　angel　of
heaven　farewell　，　Charlotte！

　　MARCH　15。　I　have　just　had　a　sad　adventure　，　which　will　drive　me　away
from　here。　I　lose　all　patience！——　Death！——　It　is　not　to　be　remedied
；　and　you　alone　are　to　blame　，　for　you　urged　and　impelled　me　to　fill
a　post　for　which　I　was　by　no　means　suited。　I　have　now　reason　to　be　satisfied，
and　so　have　you　！　But，　that　you　may　not　again　attribute　this　fatality
to　my　impetuous　temper，　I　send　you　，　my　dear　sir，　a　plain　and　simple
narration　of　the　affair　，　as　a　mere　chronicler　of　facts　would　describe
it。

　　The　Count　of　O——　likes　and　distinguishes　me。　It　is　well　known　，
and　I　have　mentioned　this　to　you　a　hundred　times。　Yesterday　I　dined　with
him。　It　is　the　day　on　which　the　nobility　are　accustomed　to　assemble　at
his　house　in　the　evening。　I　never　once　thought　of　the　assembly，　nor　that
we　subalterns　did　not　belong　to　such　society。　Well，　I　dined　with　the
count　；　and，　after　dinner　，　we　adjourned　to　the　large　hall。　We　walked
up　and　down　together：　and　I　conversed　with　him　，　and　with　Colonel　B
——，　who　joined　us；　and　in　this　manner　the　hour　for　the　assembly　approached。
God　knows　，　I　was　thinking　of　nothing，　when　who　should　enter　but　the
honourable　Lady　acpanied　by　her　noble　husband　and　their　silly，　scheming
daughter，　with　her　small　waist　and　flat　neck　；　and，　with　disdainful
looks　and　a　haughty　air　they　passed　me　by。　As　I　heartily　detest　the　whole
race，　I　determined　upon　going　away　；　and　only　waited　till　the　count
had　disengaged　himself　from　their　impertinent　prattle　，　to　take　leave，
when　the　agreeable　Miss　B　——　came　in。　As　I　never　meet　her　without　experiencing
a　heartfelt　pleasure，　I　stayed　and　talked　to　her　，　leaning　over　the
back　of　her　chair　，　and　did　not　perceive　，　till　after　some　time　，　that
she　seemed　a　little　confused，　and　ceased　to　answer　me　with　her　usual
ease　of　manner。　I　was　struck　with　it。　〃Heavens！〃　I　said　to　myself，　〃can
she　，　too，　be　like　the　rest　？〃　I　felt　annoyed，　and　was　about　to　withdraw
；　but　I　remained　，　notwithstanding，　forming　excuses　for　her　conduct，
fancying　she　did　not　mean　it，　and　still　hoping　to　receive　some　friendly
recognition。　The　rest　of　the　pany　now　arrived。　There　was　the　Baron
F　——，　in　an　entire　suit　that　dated　from　the　coronation　of　Francis　I。
；　the　Chancellor　N　——，　with　his　deaf　wife　；　the　shabbily…dressed
I　——，　whose　old…fashioned　coat　bore　evidence　of　modern　repairs　：　this
crowned　the　whole。　I　conversed　with　some　of　my　acquaintances，　but　they
answered　me　laconically。　I　was　engaged　in　observing　Miss　B——，　and　did
not　notice　that　the　women　were　whispering　at　the　end　of　the　room，　that
the　murmur　extended　by　degrees　to　the　men　，　that　Madame　S——　addressed
the　count　with　much　warmth（this　was　all　related　to　me　subsequently　by
Miss　B——）；　till　at　length　the　count　came　up　to　me　，　and　took　me　to
the　window。　〃You　know　our　ridiculous　customs，〃　he　said。　〃I　perceive　the
pany　is　rather　displeased　at　your　being　here。　I　would　not　on　any　account
——〃　〃I　beg　your　excellency's　pardon　！〃　I　exclaimed。　〃I　ought　to　have
thought　of　this　before，　but　I　know　you　will　forgive　this　little　inattention。
I　was　going　，〃　I　added　，　〃some　time　ago　，　but　my　evil　genius　detained
me。〃　And　I　smiled　and　bowed　，　to　take　my　leave。　He　shook　me　by　the　hand，
in　a　manner　which　expressed　everything。　I　hastened　at　once　from　the　illustrious
assembly，　sprang　into　a　carriage　，　and　drove　to　M　——。　I　contemplated
the　setting　sun　from　the　top　of　the　hill，　and　read　that　beautiful　passage
in　Homer，　where　Ulysses　is　entertained　by　the　hospitable　herdsmen。　This
was　indeed　delightful。　I　returned　home　to　supper　in　the　evening。　But　few
persons　were　assembled　in　the　room。　They　had　turned　up　a　corner　of　the
table…cloth　，　and　were　playing　at　dice。　The　good…natured　A　——　came
in。　He　laid　down　his　hat　when　he　saw　me　，　approached　me，　and　said　in
a　low　tone，　〃You　have　met　with　a　disagreeable　adventure。〃　〃I　！〃　I　exclaimed。
〃The　count　obliged　you　to　withdraw　from　the　assembly！〃　〃Deuce　take　the
assembly！〃　said　I。　〃I　was　very　glad　to　be　gone。〃　〃I　am　delighted　，〃
he　added，　〃that　you　take　it　so　lightly。　I　am　only　sorry　that　it　is　already
so　much　spoken　of。〃　The　circumstance　then　began　to　pain　me。　I　fancied
that　every　one　who　sat　down　，　and　even　looked　at　me，　was　thinking　of
this　incident　；　and　my　heart　became　embittered。

　　And　now　I　could　plunge　a　dagger　into　my　bosom　，　when　I　hear　myself
everywhere　pitied　，　and　observe　the　triumph　of　my　enemies，　who　say　that
this　is　always　the　case　with　vain　persons　，　whose　heads　are　turned　with
conceit　，　who　affect　to　despise　forms　and　such　petty　，　idle　nonsense。

　　Say　what　you　will　of　fortitude，　but　show　me　the　man　who　can　patiently
endure　the　laughter　of　fools，　when　they　have　obtained　an　advantage　over
him。　'Tis　only　when　their　nonsense　is　without　foundation　that　one　can
suffer　it　without　plaint。

　　MARCH　16。　Everything　conspires　against　me。　I　met　Miss　B　——　walking
to…day。　I　could　not　help　joining　her；　and，　when　we　were　at　a　little
distance　from　her　panions，　I　expressed　my　sense　of　her　altered　manner
toward　me。　〃O　Werther　！〃　she　said，　in　a　tone　of　emotion　，　〃you　，　who
know　my　heart　，　how　could　you　so　ill　interpret　my　distress　？　What　did
I　not　suffer　for　you，　from　the　moment　you　entered　the　room　！　I　foresaw
it　all，　a　hundred　times　was　I　on　the　point　of　mentioning　it　to　you。　I
knew　that　the　S　——s　and　T　——s　，　with　their　husbands，　would　quit
the　room，　rather　than　remain　in　your　pany。　I　knew　that　the　count　would
not　break　with　them　：　and　now　so　much　is　said　about　it。〃　〃How！〃　I　exclaimed，
and　endeavoured　to　conceal　my　emotion　；　for　all　that　Adelin　had　mentioned
to　me　yesterday　recurred　to　me　painfully　at　that　moment。　〃Oh，　how　much
it　has　already　cost　me！〃　said　this　amiable　girl，　while　her　eyes　filled
with　tears。　I　could　scarcely　contain　myself　，　and　was　ready　to　throw
myself　at　her　feet。　〃Explain　yourself　！〃　I　cried。　Tears　flowed　down　her
cheeks。　I　became　quite　frantic。　She　wiped　them　away　，　without　attempting
to　conceal　them。　〃You　know　my　aunt，〃　she　continued　；　〃she　was　present
：　and　in　what　light　does　she　consider　the　affair　！　Last　night　，　and
this　morning，　Werther，　I　was　pelled　to　listen　to　a　lecture　upon　my，
acquaintance　with　you。　I　have　been　obliged　to　hear　you　condemned　and　depreciated
；　and　I　could　not——　I　dared　not——　say　much　in　your　defence。〃

　　Every　word　she　uttered　was　a　dagger　to　my　heart。　She　did　not　feel
what　a　mercy　it　would　have　been　to　conceal　everything　from　me。　She　told
me，　in　addition，　all　the　impertinence　that　would　be　further　circulated，
and　how　the　malicious　would　triumph　；　how　they　would　rejoice　over　the
punishment　of　my　pride，　over　my　humiliation　for　that　want　of　esteem　for
others　with　which　I　had　often　been　reproached。　To　hear　all　this　，　Wilhelm，
uttered　by　her　in　a　voice　of　the　most　sincere　sympat