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ou find Christ giving various  counsels to varying people; and often jealously careful to  avoid definite precept。  Is he asked; for example; to divide  a heritage?  He refuses: and the best advice that he will  offer is but a paraphrase of that tenth commandment which  figures so strangely among the rest。  TAKE HEED; AND BEWARE  OF COVETOUSNESS。  If you complain that this is vague; I have  failed to carry you along with me in my argument。  For no  definite precept can be more than an illustration; though its  truth were resplendent like the sun; and it was announced  from heaven by the voice of God。  And life is so intricate  and changing; that perhaps not twenty times; or perhaps not  twice in the ages; shall we find that nice consent of  circumstances to which alone it can apply。



LAY MORALS CHAPTER III



ALTHOUGH the world and life have in a sense become  commonplace to our experience; it is but in an external  torpor; the true sentiment slumbers within us; and we have  but to reflect on ourselves or our surroundings to rekindle  our astonishment。  No length of habit can blunt our first  surprise。  Of the world I have but little to say in this  connection; a few strokes shall suffice。  We inhabit a dead  ember swimming wide in the blank of space; dizzily spinning  as it swims; and lighted up from several million miles away  by a more horrible hell…fire than was ever conceived by the  theological imagination。  Yet the dead ember is a green;  commodious dwelling…place; and the reverberation of this  hell…fire ripens flower and fruit and mildly warms us on  summer eves upon the lawn。  Far off on all hands other dead  embers; other flaming suns; wheel and race in the apparent  void; the nearest is out of call; the farthest so far that  the heart sickens in the effort to conceive the distance。   Shipwrecked seamen on the deep; though they bestride but the  truncheon of a boom; are safe and near at home compared with  mankind on its bullet。  Even to us who have known no other;  it seems a strange; if not an appalling; place of residence。

But far stranger is the resident; man; a creature compact of  wonders that; after centuries of custom; is still wonderful  to himself。  He inhabits a body which he is continually  outliving; discarding and renewing。  Food and sleep; by an  unknown alchemy; restore his spirits and the freshness of his  countenance。  Hair grows on him like grass; his eyes; his  brain; his sinews; thirst for action; he joys to see and  touch and hear; to partake the sun and wind; to sit down and  intently ponder on his astonishing attributes and situation;  to rise up and run; to perform the strange and revolting  round of physical functions。  The sight of a flower; the note  of a bird; will often move him deeply; yet he looks  unconcerned on the impassable distances and portentous  bonfires of the universe。  He comprehends; he designs; he  tames nature; rides the sea; ploughs; climbs the air in a  balloon; makes vast inquiries; begins interminable labours;  joins himself into federations and populous cities; spends  his days to deliver the ends of the earth or to benefit  unborn posterity; and yet knows himself for a piece of  unsurpassed fragility and the creature of a few days。  His  sight; which conducts him; which takes notice of the farthest  stars; which is miraculous in every way and a thing defying  explanation or belief; is yet lodged in a piece of jelly; and  can be extinguished with a touch。  His heart; which all  through life so indomitably; so athletically labours; is but  a capsule; and may be stopped with a pin。  His whole body;  for all its savage energies; its leaping and its winged  desires; may yet be tamed and conquered by a draught of air  or a sprinkling of cold dew。  What he calls death; which is  the seeming arrest of everything; and the ruin and hateful  transformation of the visible body; lies in wait for him  outwardly in a thousand accidents; and grows up in secret  diseases from within。  He is still learning to be a man when  his faculties are already beginning to decline; he has not  yet understood himself or his position before he inevitably  dies。  And yet this mad; chimerical creature can take no  thought of his last end; lives as though he were eternal;  plunges with his vulnerable body into the shock of war; and  daily affronts death with unconcern。  He cannot take a step  without pain or pleasure。  His life is a tissue of  sensations; which he distinguishes as they seem to come more  directly from himself or his surroundings。  He is conscious  of himself as a joyer or a sufferer; as that which craves;  chooses; and is satisfied; conscious of his surroundings as  it were of an inexhaustible purveyor; the source of aspects;  inspirations; wonders; cruel knocks and transporting  caresses。  Thus he goes on his way; stumbling among delights  and agonies。

Matter is a far…fetched theory; and materialism is without a  root in man。  To him everything is important in the degree to  which it moves him。  The telegraph wires and posts; the  electricity speeding from clerk to clerk; the clerks; the  glad or sorrowful import of the message; and the paper on  which it is finally brought to him at home; are all equally  facts; all equally exist for man。  A word or a thought can  wound him as acutely as a knife of steel。  If he thinks he is  loved; he will rise up and glory to himself; although he be  in a distant land and short of necessary bread。  Does he  think he is not loved? … he may have the woman at his beck;  and there is not a joy for him in all the world。  Indeed; if  we are to make any account of this figment of reason; the  distinction between material and immaterial; we shall  conclude that the life of each man as an individual is  immaterial; although the continuation and prospects of  mankind as a race turn upon material conditions。  The  physical business of each man's body is transacted for him;  like a sybarite; he has attentive valets in his own viscera;  he breathes; he sweats; he digests without an effort; or so  much as a consenting volition; for the most part he even  eats; not with a wakeful consciousness; but as it were  between two thoughts。  His life is centred among other and  more important considerations; touch him in his honour or his  love; creatures of the imagination which attach him to  mankind or to an individual man or woman; cross him in his  piety which connects his soul with heaven; and he turns from  his food; he loathes his breath; and with a magnanimous  emotion cuts the knots of his existence and frees himself at  a blow from the web of pains and pleasures。

It follows that man is twofold at least; that he is not a  rounded and autonomous empire; but that in the same body with  him there dwell other powers tributary but independent。  If I  now behold one walking in a garden; curiously coloured and  illuminated by the sun; digesting his food with elaborate  chemistry; breathing; circulating blood; directing himself by  the sight of his eyes; accommodating his body by a thousand  delicate balancings to the wind and the uneven surface of the  path; and all the time; perhaps; with his mind engaged about  America; or the dog…star; or the attributes of God … what am  I to say; or how am I to describe the thing I see?  Is that  truly a man; in the rigorous meaning of the word? or is it  not a man and something else?  What; then; are we to count  the centre…bit and axle of a being so variously compounded?   It is a question much debated。  Some read his history in a  certain intricacy of nerve and the success of successive  digestions; others find him an exiled piece of heaven blown  upon and determined by the breath of God; and both schools of  theorists will scream like scalded children at a word of  doubt。  Yet either of these views; however plausible; is  beside the question; either may be right; and I care not; I  ask a more particular answer; and to a more immediate point。   What is the man?  There is Something that was before hunger  and that remains behind after a meal。  It may or may not be  engaged in any given act or passion; but when it is; it  changes; heightens; and sanctifies。  Thus it is not engaged  in lust; where satisfaction ends the chapter; and it is  engaged in love; where no satisfaction can blunt the edge of  the desire; and where age; sickness; or alienation may deface  what was desirable without diminishing the sentiment。  This  something; which is the man; is a permanence which abides  through the vicissitudes of passion; now overwhelmed and now  triumphant; now unconscious of itself in the immediate  distress of appetite or pain; now rising unclouded above all。   So; to the man; his own central self fades and grows clear  again amid the tumult of the senses; like a revolving Pharos  in the night。  It is forgotten; it is hid; it seems; for  ever; and yet in the next calm hour he shall behold himself  once more; shining and unmoved among changes and storm。

Mankind; in the sense of the creeping mass that is born and  eats; that generates and dies; is but the aggregate of the  outer and lower sides of man。  This inner consciousness; this  lantern alternately obscured and shining; to and by which the  individual exists and must order his conduct; is something  special to himself and not common to the race。  His joys  delight; his sorrows wound him; according as THIS is  interested or indifferent in the affair; according as they  arise in an imperial war or in a broil conducted by the  tributary chieftains of the mind。  He may lose all; and THIS  not suffer; he may lose what is materially a trifle; and THIS  leap in his bosom with a cruel pang。  I do not speak of it to  hardened theorists: the living man knows keenly what it is I  mean。

'Perceive at last that thou hast in thee something better and  more divine than the things which cause the various effects;  and; as it were; pull thee by the strings。  What is that now  in thy mind? is it fear; or suspicion; or desire; or anything  of that kind?'  Thus far Marcus Aurelius; in one of the most  notable passages in any book。  Here is a question worthy to  be answered。  What is in thy mind?  What is the utterance of  your inmost self when; in a quiet hour; it can be heard  intelligibly?  It is something beyond the compass of your  thinking; inasmuch as it is yourself; but is it not of a  higher spirit than you had dreamed betweenwhiles; and erect  above all base considerations?  This soul seems hardly  touched with our infirmities; we can find in it certainly no  fear; suspicion; or desire; we are only conscious … and that  as though we read it in the eyes of some one else … of a  great and unqualified readiness。  A readiness to what? to  pass over and look beyond the objects of desire and fear; for  something else。  And this something else? this something  which is apart from desire and fear; to which all the  kingdoms of the world and the immediate death of the body are  alike indifferent and beside the point; and which yet regards  conduct … by what name are we to call it?  It may be the love  of God; or it may be an inherited (and certainly well  concealed) instinct to preserve self and propagate the race;  I am not; for the moment; averse to either theory; but it  will save time to c

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