camille (la dame aux camilias)(卡米勒)-第18章
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CAMILLE （LA DAME AUX CAMILIAS）
CHAPTER 13
〃You have come almost as quickly as we；〃 said Prudence。
〃Yes；〃 I answered mechanically。 〃Where is Marguerite？〃
〃At home。〃
〃Alone？〃
〃With M。 de G。〃
I walked to and fro in the room。
〃Well； what is the matter？〃
〃Do you think it amuses me to wait here till M。 de G。 leaves
Marguerite's？〃
〃How unreasonable you are！ Don't you see that Marguerite can't turn
the count out of doors？ M。 de G。 has been with her for a long time； he has
always given her a lot of money； he still does。 Marguerite spends more
than a hundred thousand francs a year； she has heaps of debts。 The duke
gives her all that she asks for； but she does not always venture to ask him
for all that she is in want of。 It would never do for her to quarrel with the
count； who is worth to her at least ten thousand francs a year。 Marguerite
is very fond of you； my dear fellow； but your liaison with her； in her
interests and in yours； ought not to be serious。 You with your seven or
eight thousand francs a year； what could you do toward supplying all the
luxuries which a girl like that is in need of？ It would not be enough to
keep her carriage。 Take Marguerite for what she is； for a good； bright；
pretty girl； be her lover for a month； two months； give her flowers； sweets；
boxes at the theatre； but don't get any other ideas into your head； and don't
make absurd scenes of jealousy。 You know whom you have to do with；
Marguerite isn't a saint。 She likes you； you are very fond of her； let the rest
alone。 You amaze me when I see you so touchy； you have the most
charming mistress in Paris。 She receives you in the greatest style； she is
covered with diamonds； she needn't cost you a penny； unless you like； and
you are not satisfied。 My dear fellow； you ask too much！〃
〃You are right； but I can't help it； the idea that that man is her lover
hurts me horribly。〃
〃In the first place；〃 replied Prudence； 〃is he still her lover？ He is a man
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who is useful to her； nothing more。 She has closed her doors to him for
two days； he came this morningshe could not but accept the box and let
him accompany her。 He saw her home； he has gone in for a moment； he is
not staying； because you are waiting here。 All that； it seems to me； is quite
natural。 Besides； you don't mind the duke。〃
〃Yes； but he is an old man； and I am sure that Marguerite is not his
mistress。 Then； it is all very well to accept one liaison； but not two。 Such
easiness in the matter is very like calculation； and puts the man who
consents to it； even out of love； very much in the category of those who； in
a lower stage of society； make a trade of their connivance； and a profit of
their trade。〃
〃Ah； my dear fellow； how old…fashioned you are！ How many of the
richest and most fashionable men of the best families I have seen quite
ready to do what I advise you to do； and without an effort； without shame；
without remorse； Why； one sees it every day。 How do you suppose the
kept women in Paris could live in the style they do； if they had not three or
four lovers at once？ No single fortune； however large； could suffice for the
expenses of a woman like Marguerite。 A fortune of five hundred thousand
francs a year is； in France； an enormous fortune； well； my dear friend； five
hundred thousand francs a year would still be too little； and for this reason：
a man with such an income has a large house； horses； servants； carriages；
he shoots； has friends； often he is married； he has children； he races；
gambles； travels； and what not。 All these habits are so much a part of his
position that he can not forego them without appearing to have lost all his
money； and without causing scandal。 Taking it all round； with five hundred
thousand francs a year he can not give a woman more than forty or fifty
thousand francs in the year； and that is already a good deal。 Well； other
lovers make up for the rest of her expenses。 With Marguerite； it is still
more convenient； she has chanced by a miracle on an old man worth ten
millions； whose wife and daughter are dead； who has only some nephews；
themselves rich； and who gives her all she wants without asking anything
in return。 But she can not ask him for more than seventy thousand francs a
year； and I am sure that if she did ask for more； despite his health and the
affection he has for her he would not give it to her。
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〃All the young men of twenty or thirty thousand francs a year at Paris；
that is to say； men who have only just enough to live on in the society in
which they mix； know perfectly well； when they are the lovers of a woman
like Marguerite； that she could not so much as pay for the rooms she lives
in and the servants who wait upon her with what they give her。 They do
not say to her that they know it； they pretend not to see anything； and
when they have had enough of it they go their way。 If they have the vanity
to wish to pay for everything they get ruined； like the fools they are； and
go and get killed in Africa； after leaving a hundred thousand francs of debt
in Paris。 Do you think a woman is grateful to them for it？ Far from it。 She
declares that she has sacrificed her position for them； and that while she
was with them she was losing money。 These details seem to you shocking？
Well； they are true。 You are a very nice fellow； I like you very much。 I
have lived with these women for twenty years； I know what they are worth；
and I don't want to see you take the caprice that a pretty girl has for you
too seriously。
〃Then； besides that；〃 continued Prudence； 〃admit that Marguerite loves
you enough to give up the count or the duke； in case one of them were to
discover your liaison and to tell her to choose between him and you； the
sacrifice that she would make for you would be enormous； you can not
deny it。 What equal sacrifice could you make for her； on your part； and
when you had got tired of her； what could you do to make up for what you
had taken from her？ Nothing。 You would have cut her off from the world
in which her fortune and her future were to be found； she would have
given you her best years； and she would be forgotten。 Either you would be
an ordinary man； and； casting her past in her teeth； you would leave her；
telling her that you were only doing like her other lovers； and you would
abandon her to certain misery； or you would be an honest man； and；
feeling bound to keep her by you； you would bring inevitable trouble upon
yourself； for a liaison which is excusable in a young man； is no longer
excusable in a man of middle age。 It becomes an obstacle to every thing； it
allows neither family nor ambition； man's second and last loves。 Believe
me； then； my friend； take things for what they are worth； and do not give a
kept woman the right to call herself your creditor； no matter in what。〃
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It was well argued； with a logic of which I should have thought
Prudence incapable。 I had nothing to reply； except that she was right； I
took her hand and thanked her for her counsels。
〃Come； come；〃 said she； 〃put these foolish theories to flight； and laugh
over them。 Life is pleasant； my dear fellow； it all depends on the colour of
the glass through which one sees it。 Ask your friend Gaston； there's a man
who seems to me to understand love as I understand it。 All that you need
think of； unless you are quite a fool； is that close by there is a beautiful girl
who is waiting impatiently for the man who is with her to go； thinking of
you； keeping the whole night for you； and who loves you； I am certain。
Now； come to the window with me； and let us watch for the count to go；
he won't be long in leaving the coast clear。〃
Prudence opened the window； and we leaned side by side over the
balcony。 She watched the few passers； I reflected。 All that she had said
buzzed in my head； and I could not help feeling that she was right； but the
genuine love which I had for Marguerite had some difficulty in
accommodating itself to such a belief。 I sighed from time to time； at which
Prudence turned； and shrugged her shoulders like a physician who has
given up his patient。
〃How one realizes the shortness of life；〃 I said to myself； 〃by the
rapidity of sensations！ I have only known Marguerite for two days； she has
only been my mistress since yesterday； and she has already so completely
absorbed my thoughts； my heart； and my life that the visit of the Comte de
G。 is a misfortune for me。〃
At last the count came out； got into his carriage and disappeared。
Prudence closed the window。 At the same instant Marguerite called to us：
〃Come at once；〃 she said； 〃they are laying the table； and we'll have
supper。〃
When I entered； Marguerite ran to me； threw her arms around my neck
and kissed me with all her might。
〃Are we still sulky？〃 she said to me。
〃No； it is all over；〃 replied Prudence。 〃I have given him a talking to；
and he has promised to be reasonable。〃
〃Well and good。〃
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In spite of myself I glanced at the bed； it was not unmade。 As for
Marguerite； she was already in her white dressing…gown。 We sat down to
table。
Charm； sweetness； spontaneity； Marguerite had them all； and I was
forced from time to time to admit that I had no right to ask of her anything
else； that many people would be very happy to be in my place； and that；
like Virgil's shep
