what diantha did-第3章

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Dutyunder　restriction。

In　the　dead　quiet　of　the　afternoon　Diantha　and　her　mother　sat　there
sewing。　　The　sun　poured　down　through　the　dangling　eucalyptus　leaves。　
The　dry　air；　rich　with　flower　odors；　flowed　softly　in；　pushing　the　white
sash　curtains　a　steady　inch　or　two。　　Ee…errr！Ee…errr！came　the　faint
whine　of　the　windmill。

To　the　older　woman　rocking　in　her　small　splint　chair　by　the　rose…draped
window；　her　thoughts　dwelling　on　long　dark　green　grass；　the　shade　of
elms；　and　cows　knee…deep　in　river…shallows；　this　was　Californiahot；
arid；　tedious　in　endless　sunlighta　place　of　exile。

To　the　younger；　the　long　seam　of　the　turned　sheet　pinned　tightly　to　her
knee；　her　needle　flying　firmly　and　steadily；　and　her　thoughts　full　of
pouring　moonlight　through　acacia　boughs　and　Ross's　murmured　words；　it
was　Californiarich；　warm；　full　of　sweet　bloom　and　fruit；　of　boundless
vitality；　promise；　and　powerhome！

Mrs。　Bell　drew　a　long　weary　sigh；　and　laid　down　her　work　for　a　moment。

〃Why　don't　you　stop　it　Mother　dear？　　There's　surely　no　hurry　about　these
things。〃

〃Nonot　particularly；〃　her　mother　answered；　〃but　there's　plenty　else　to
do。〃　　And　she　went　on　with　the　long　neat　hemming。　　Diantha　did　the　〃over
and　over　seam〃　up　the　middle。

〃What　_do_　you　do　it　for　anyway；　MotherI　always　hated　this　joband
you　don't　seem　to　like　it。〃

〃They　wear　almost　twice　as　long；　child；　you　know。　　The　middle　gets　worn
and　the　edges　don't。　　Now　they're　reversed。　　As　to　liking　it〃　　She
gave　a　little　smile；　a　smile　that　was　too　tired　to　be　sarcastic；　but
which　certainly　did　not　indicate　pleasure。

〃What　kind　of　work　do　you　like　bestreally？〃　her　daughter　inquired
suddenly；　after　a　silent　moment　or　two。

〃WhyI　don't　know；〃　said　her　mother。　　〃I　never　thought　of　it。　　I　never
tried　any　but　teaching。　　I　didn't　like　that。　　Neither　did　your　Aunt
Esther；　but　she's　still　teaching。〃

〃Didn't　you　like　any　of　it？〃　pursued　Diantha。

〃I　liked　arithmetic　best。　　I　always　loved　arithmetic；　when　I　went　to
schoolused　to　stand　highest　in　that。〃

〃And　what　part　of　housework　do　you　like　best？〃　the　girl　persisted。

Mrs。　Bell　smiled　again；　wanly。　　〃Seems　to　me　sometimes　as　if　I　couldn't
tell　sometimes　what　part　I　like　least！〃　she　answered。　　Then　with　sudden
heat〃O　my　Child！　　Don't　you　marry　till　Ross　can　afford　at　least　one
girl　for　you！〃

Diantha　put　her　small；　strong　hands　behind　her　head　and　leaned　back　in
her　chair。　　〃We'll　have　to　wait　some　time　for　that　I　fancy；〃　she　said。　
〃But；　Mother；　there　is　one　part　you　likekeeping　accounts！　　I　never　saw
anything　like　the　way　you　manage　the　money；　and　I　believe　you've　got
every　bill　since　yon　were　married。〃

〃YesI　do　love　accounts；〃　Mrs。　Bell　admitted。　　〃And　I　can　keep　run　of
things。　　I've　often　thought　your　Father'd　have　done　better　if　he'd　let
me　run　that　end　of　his　business。〃

Diantha　gave　a　fierce　little　laugh。　　She　admired　her　father　in　some
ways；　enjoyed　him　in　some　ways；　loved　him　as　a　child　does　if　not
ill…treated；　but　she　loved　her　mother　with　a　sort　of　passionate　pity
mixed　with　pride；　feeling　always　nobler　power　in　her　than　had　ever　had　a
fair　chance　to　grow。　　It　seemed　to　her　an　interminable　dull　tragedy；
this　graceful；　eager；　black…eyed　woman；　spending　what　to　the　girl　was
literally　a　lifetime；　in　the　conscientious　performance　of　duties　she　did
not　love。

She　knew　her　mother's　idea　of　duty；　knew　the　clear　head；　the　steady
will；　the　active　intelligence　holding　her　relentlessly　to　the　task；　the
chafe　and　fret　of　seeing　her　husband　constantly　attempting　against　her
judgment；　and　failing　for　lack　of　the　help　he　scorned。　　Young　as　she
was；　she　realized　that　the　nervous　breakdown　of　these　later　years　was
wholly　due　to　that　common　misery　of　〃the　square　man　in　the　round　hole。〃

She　folded　her　finished　sheet　in　accurate　lines　and　laid　it　awaytaking
her　mother's　also。　　〃Now　you　sit　still　for　once；　Mother　dear；　read　or
lie　down。　　Don't　you　stir　till　supper's　ready。〃

And　from　pantry　to　table　she　stepped；　swiftly　and　lightly；　setting　out
what　was　needed；　greased　her　pans　and　set　them　before　her；　and　proceeded
to　make　biscuit。

Her　mother　watched　her　admiringly。　　〃How　easy　you　do　it！〃　she　said。　　〃I
never　could　make　bread　without　getting　flour　all　over　me。　　You　don't
spill　a　speck！〃

Diantha　smiled。　　〃I　ought　to　do　it　easily　by　this　time。　　Father's　got　to
have　hot　bread　for　supperor　thinks　he　has！and　I've　made　'emevery
night　when　I　was　at　home　for　this　ten　years　back！〃

〃I　guess　you　have；〃　said　Mrs。　Bell　proudly。　　〃You　were　only　eleven　when
you　made　your　first　batch。　　I　can　remember　just　as　well！　　I　had　one　of
my　bad　headaches　that　nightand　it　did　seem　as　if　I　couldn't　sit　up！　
But　your　Father's　got　to　have　his　biscuit　whether　or　no。　　And　you　said；
'Now　Mother　you　lie　right　still　on　that　sofa　and　let　me　do　it！　　I　can！'　
And　you　could！you　did！　　They　were　bettern'　mine　that　first　timeand
your　Father　praised　'emand　you've　been　at　it　ever　since。〃

〃Yes；〃　said　Diantha；　with　a　deeper　note　of　feeling　than　her　mother
caught；　〃I've　been　at　it　ever　since！〃

〃Except　when　you　were　teaching　school；〃　pursued　her　mother。

〃Except　when　I　taught　school　at　Medville；〃　Diantha　corrected。　　〃When　I
taught　here　I　made　'em　just　the　same。〃

〃So　you　did；〃　agreed　her　mother。　　〃So　you　did！　　No　matter　how　tired　you
wereyou　wouldn't　admit　it。　　You　always　were　the　best　child！〃

〃If　I　was　tired　it　was　not　of　making　biscuits　anyhow。　　I　was　tired
enough　of　teaching　school　though。　　I've　got　something　to　tell　you；
presently；　Mother。〃

She　covered　the　biscuits　with　a　light　cloth　and　set　them　on　the　shelf
over　the　stove；　then　poked　among　the　greasewood　roots　to　find　what　she
wanted　and　started　a　fire。　　〃Why　_don't_　you　get　an　oil　stove？　　Or　a
gasoline？　　It　would　be　a　lot　easier。〃

〃Yes；〃　her　mother　agreed。　　〃I've　wanted　one　for　twenty　years；　but　you
know　your　Father　won't　have　one　in　the　house。　　He　says　they're
dangerous。　　What　are　you　going　to　tell　me；　dear？　　I　do　hope　you　and　Ross
haven't　quarrelled。〃

〃No　indeed　we　haven't；　Mother。　　Ross　is　splendid。　　Only〃

〃Only　what；　Dinah？〃

〃Only　he's　so　tied　up！〃　said　the　girl；　brushing　every　chip　from　the
hearth。　　〃He's　perfectly　helpless　there；　with　that　mother　of　hisand
those　four　sisters。〃

〃Ross　is　a　good　son；〃　said　Mrs。　Bell；　〃and　a　good　brother。　　I　never　saw
a　better。　　He's　certainly　doing　his　duty。　　Now　if　his　father'd　lived　you
two　could　have　got　married　by　this　time　maybe；　though　you're　too　young
yet。〃

Diantha　washed　and　put　away　the　dishes　she　had　used；　saw　that　the　pantry
was　in　its　usual　delicate　order；　and　proceeded　to　set　the　table；　with
light　steps　and　no　clatter　of　dishes。

〃I'm　twenty…one；〃　she　said。

〃Yes；　you're　twenty…one；〃　her　mother　allowed。　　〃It　don't　seem　possible；
but　you　are。　　My　first　baby！〃　she　looked　at　her　proudly

〃If　Ross　has　to　wait　for　all　those　girls　to　marryand　to　pay　his
father's　debtsI'll　be　old　enough；〃　said　Diantha　grimly。

Her　mother　watched　her　quick　assured　movements　with　admiration；　and
listened　with　keen　sympathy。　　〃I　know　it's　hard；　dear　child。　　You've
only　been　engaged　six　monthsand　it　looks　as　if　it　might　be　some　years
before　Ross'll　be　able　to　marry。　　He's　got　an　awful　load　for　a　boy　to
carry　alone。〃

〃I　should　say　he　had！〃　Diantha　burst　forth。　　〃Five　helpless　women！or
three　women；　and　two　girls。　　Though　Cora's　as　old　as　I　was　when　I　began
to　teach。　　And　not　one　of　'em　will　lift　a　finger　to　earn　her　own
living。〃

〃They　weren't　brought　up　that　way；〃　said　Mrs。　Bell。　　〃Their　mother　don't
approve　of　it。　　She　thinks　the　home　is　the　place　for　a　womanand　so
does　Rossand　so　do　I；〃　she　added　rather　faintly。

Diantha　put　her　pan　of　white　puff…balls　into　the　oven；　sliced　a　quantity
of　smoked　beef　in　thin　shavings；　and　made　white　sauce　for　it；　talking
the　while　as　if　these　acts　were　automatic。　　〃I　don't　agree　with　Mrs。
Warden　on　that　point；　nor　with　Ross；　nor　with　you；　Mother；〃　she　said；
〃What　I've　got　to　tell　you　is　thisI'm　going　away　from　home。　　To　work。〃

Mrs。　Bell　stopped　rocking；　stopped　fanning；　and　regarded　her　daughter
with　wide　frightened　eyes。

〃Why　Diantha！〃　she　said。　　〃Why　Diantha！　　You　wouldn't　go　and　leave　your
Mother！〃

Diantha　drew　a　deep　breath　and　stood　for　a　moment　looking　at　the　feeble
little　woman　in　the　chair。　　Then　she　went　to　her；　knelt　down　and　hugged
her　closeclose。

〃It's　not　because　I　don't　love　you；　Mother。　　It's　because　I　do。　　And
it's　not　because　I　don't　love　Ross　either：it's　because　I　_do。_　　I　want
to　take　care　of　you；　Mother；　and　make　life　easier　for　you　as　long　as　you
live。　　I　want　to　help　himto　help　carry　that　awful　loadand　I'm
goingtodoit！〃

She　stood　up　hastily；　for　a　step　sounded　on　the　back　porch。　　It　was　only
her　sister；　who　hurried　in；　put　a　dish　on　the　table；　kissed　her　mother
and　took　another　rocking…chair。

〃I　just　ran　in；〃　said　she；　〃to　bring　those　berries。　　Aren't　they
beauties？　　The　baby's　asleep。　　Gerald　hasn't　got　in　yet。　　Supper's　all
ready；　and　I　can　see　him　coming　time　enough　to　run　back。　　Why；　Mother！　
What's　the　matter？　　You're　crying！〃

〃Am　I？〃　asked　Mrs。　Bell　weakly；　wiping　her　eyes　in　a　dazed　way。

〃What　are　you　doing　to　Mother；　Diantha？〃　demanded　young　Mrs。　Peters。　
〃Bless　me！　I　thought　you　and　she　never　had　any　differences！　I　was　always
the　black　sheep；　when　I　was　at　home。　　Maybe　that's　why　I　left　so　early！〃

She　looked　very　pretty　and　complacent；　this　young　matron　and　mother　of
nineteen；　and　patted　the　older　woman's　hand　affectionately；　demanding；
〃Comewhat's　the　trouble？〃

〃You　might　as　well　know　now　as　later；〃　said　her　sister。　　〃I　have　decided
to　leave　home；　that's　all。〃

〃To　leave　home！〃　　Mrs。　Peters　sat　up　straight　and　stared　at　her。　　〃To
leave　home！And　Mother！〃

〃Well？〃　said　Diantha；　while　the　tears　rose　and　ran　over　from　her
mother's　eyes。　　〃Well；　why　not？　　You　left　homeand　Motherbefore　you
were　eighteen。〃

〃That's　different！〃　said　her　sister　sharply。　　〃I　left　to　be　married；to
have　a　home　of　my　own。　　And　besides　I　haven't　gone　far！　　I　can　see
Mother　every　day。〃

〃That's　one　reason　I　can　go　now　better　than　later　on；〃　Diantha　said。　
〃You　are　close　by　in　case　of　any　trouble。〃

〃What　on　earth　are　you　going　for？　　Ross　isn't　ready　to　marry　yet；　is
he？〃

〃Nonor　likely　to　be　for　years。　　That's　another　reason　I'm　going。〃

〃But　what　_for；_　for　goodness　sake。〃

〃To　earn　moneyfor　one　thing。〃

〃Can't　you　earn　money　enough　by　teaching？〃　the　Mother　broke　in　eagerly。　
〃I　know　you　haven't　got　the　same　place　this　fallbut　you　can　get
another　easy　enough。〃

Diantha　shook　her　head。　　〃No；　Mother；　I've　had　enough　of　that。　　I've
taught　for　four　years。　　I　don't　like　it；　I　don't　do　well；　and　it
exhausts　me　horribly。　　And　I　should　never　get　beyond　a　thousand　or
fifteen　hundred　dollars　a　year　if　I　taught　for　a　lifetime。〃

〃Well；　I　declare！〃　said　her　sister。　　〃What　do　you　_expect_　to　get？　　I
should　think　fifteen　hundred　dollars　a　year　was　enough　for　any　woman！〃

Diantha　peered　into　the　oven　and　turned　her　biscuit　pan　around。

〃And　you're　meaning　to　leave　home　just　to　make　money；　are　you？〃

〃Why　not？〃　said　Diantha　firmly。　　〃Henderson　didwhen　he　was　eighteen。　
None　of　you　blamed　him。〃

〃I　don't　see　what　that's　got　to　do　with　it；〃　her　mother