the diary of an old soul(一颗衰老灵魂的日记)-第13章
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long； far…wandering remove 》From thee； our life； our home； our being
blest； We learn at last to love thee true and best； And rush with all our
loves back to thy infinite rest？
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DECEMBER。
1。
I AM a little weary of my life Not thy life； blessed Father！ Or the
blood Too slowly laves the coral shores of thought； Or I am weary of
weariness and strife。 Open my soul…gates to thy living flood； I ask not
larger heart…throbs； vigour…fraught； I pray thy presence； with strong
patience rife。
2。
I will what thou will'stonly keep me sure That thou art willing； call to
me now and then。 So； ceasing to enjoy； I shall endure With perfect
patiencewilling beyond my ken Beyond my love； beyond my thinking
scope； Willing to be because thy will is pure； Willing thy will beyond all
bounds of hope。
3。
This weariness of mine； may it not come 》From something that doth
need no setting right？ Shall fruit be blamed if it hang wearily A day before
it perfected drop plumb To the sad earth from off its nursing tree？
Ripeness must always come with loss of might。 The weary evening fall
before the resting night。
4。
Hither if I have come through earth and air； Through fire and waterI
am not of them； Born in the darkness； what fair…flashing gem Would to the
earth go back and nestle there？ Not of this world； this world my life doth
hem； What if I weary； then； and look to the door； Because my unknown
life is swelling at the core？
5。
All winged things came from the waters first； Airward still many a one
from the water springs In dens and caves wind…loving things are nursed：
I lie like unhatched bird； upfolded； dumb； While all the air is trembling
with the hum Of songs and beating hearts and whirring wings； That call
my slumbering life to wake to happy things。
6。
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I lay last night and knew not why I was sad。 〃'Tis well with God；〃 I
said； 〃and he is the truth； Let that content me。〃'Tis not strength； nor
youth； Nor buoyant health； nor a heart merry…mad； That makes the fact of
things wherein men live： He is the life； and doth my life outgive； In him
there is no gloom； but all is solemn…glad；
7。
I said to myself； 〃Lo； I lie in a dream Of separation； where there comes
no sign； My waking life is hid with Christ in God； Where all is true and
potentfact divine。〃 I will not heed the thing that doth but seem； I will be
quiet as lark upon the sod； God's will； the seed； shall rest in me the pod。
8。
And when that will shall blossomthen； my God； There will be
jubilation in a world！ The glad lark； soaring heavenward from the sod； Up
the swift spiral of its own song whirled； Never such jubilation wild out…
poured As from my soul will break at thy feet； Lord； Like a great tide from
sea…heart shoreward hurled。
9。
For then thou wilt be able； then at last； To glad me as thou hungerest to
do； Then shall thy life my heart all open find； A thoroughfare to thy great
spirit…wind； Then shall I rest within thy holy vast； One with the bliss of the
eternal mind； And all creation rise in me created new。
10。
What makes thy being a bliss shall then make mind For I shall love as
thou； and love in thee； Then shall I have whatever I desire； My every
faintest wish being all divine； Power thou wilt give me to work mightily；
Even as my Lord； leading thy low men nigher； With dance and song to
cast their best upon thy fire。
11。
Then shall I live such an essential life That a mere flower will then to
me unfold More bliss than now grandest orchestral strife By love made
and obedience humble…bold； I shall straight through its window God
behold。 God； I shall feed on thee； thy creature blest With very beingwork
at one with sweetest rest。
12。
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Give me a world； to part for praise and sunder。 The brooks be bells； the
winds； in caverns dumb； Wake fife and flute and flageolet and voice； The
fire…shook earth itself be the great drum； And let the air the region's bass
out thunder； The firs be violins； the reeds hautboys； Rivers； seas； icebergs
fill the great score up and under！
13。
But rather dost thou hear the blundered words Of breathing creatures；
the music…lowing herds Of thy great cattle； thy soft…bleating sheep；
O'erhovered by the trebles of thy birds； Whose Christ…praised carelessness
song…fills the deep； Still rather a child's talk who apart doth hide him； And
make a tent for God to come and sit beside him。
14。
This is not life； this being is not enough。 But thou art life； and thou
hast life for me。 Thou mad'st the wormto cast the wormy slough； And fly
abroada glory flit and flee。 Thou hast me； statue…like； hewn in the rough；
Meaning at last to shape me perfectly。 Lord； thou hast called me fourth； I
turn and call on thee。
15。
'Tis thine to make； mine to rejoice in thine。 As； hungering for his
mother's face and eyes； The child throws wide the door； back to the wall； I
run to thee； the refuge from poor lies： Lean dogs behind me whimper； yelp；
and whine； Life lieth ever sick； Death's writhing thrall； In slavery endless；
hopeless； and supine。
16。
The life that hath not willed itself to be； Must clasp the life that willed；
and be at peace； Or； like a leaf wind…blown； through chaos flee； A life…
husk into which the demons go； And work their will； and drive it to and
fro； A thing that neither is； nor yet can cease； Which uncreation can alone
release。
17。
But when I turn and grasp the making hand； And will the making will；
with confidence I ride the crest of the creation…wave； Helpless no more； no
more existence' slave； In the heart of love's creating fire I stand； And； love…
possessed in heart and soul and sense； Take up the making share the
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making Master gave。
18。
That man alone who does the Father's works Can be the Father's son；
yea； only he Who sonlike can create； can ever be； Who with God wills not；
is no son； not free。 O Father； send the demon…doubt that lurks Behind the
hope； out into the abyss； Who trusts in knowledge all its good shall miss。
19。
Thy beasts are sinless； and do live before thee； Thy child is sinful； and
must run to thee。 Thy angels sin not and in peace adore thee； But I must
will； or never more be free。 I from thy heart came； how can I ignore thee？…
… Back to my home I hurry； haste； and flee； There I shall dwell； love…
praising evermore thee。
20。
My holy self； thy pure ideal； lies Calm in thy bosom； which it cannot
leave； My self unholy； no ideal； hies Hither and thither； gathering store to
grieve Not now； O Father！ now it mounts； it flies； To join the true self in
thy heart that waits； And； one with it； be one with all the heavenly mates。
21。
Trusting thee； Christ； I kneel； and clasp thy knee； Cast myself down；
and kiss thy brother…feet One self thou and the Father's thought of thee！
Ideal son； thou hast left the perfect home； Ideal brother； to seek thy
brothers come！ Thou know'st our angels all； God's children sweet； And of
each two wilt make one holy child complete。
22。
To a slow end I draw these daily words； Nor think such words often to
write again Rather； as light the power to me affords； Christ's new and old
would to my friends unbind； Through words he spoke help to his thought
behind； Unveil the heart with which he drew his men； Set forth his rule
o'er devils； animals； corn； and wind。
23。
I do remember how one time I thought； 〃God must be lonelyoh； so
lonely lone！ I will be very good to himah； nought Can reach the heart of
his great loneliness！ My whole heart I will bring him； with a moan That I
may not come nearer； I will lie prone Before the awful loveliness in
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loneliness' excess。〃
24。
A God must have a God for company。 And lo！ thou hast the Son…God
to thy friend。 Thou honour'st his obedience； he thy law。 Into thy secret life…
will he doth see； Thou fold'st him round in live love perfectly One two；
without beginning； without end； In love； life； strength； and truth； perfect
without a flaw。
25。
Thou hast not made； or taught me； Lord； to care For times and
seasonsbut this one glad day Is the blue sapphire clasping all the lights
That flash in the girdle of the year so fair When thou wast born a man；
because alway Thou wast and art a man； through all the flights Of thought；
and time； and thousandfold creation's play。
26。
We all are lonely； Makereach a soul Shut in by itself； a sundered
atom of thee。 No two yet loved themselves into a whole； Even when we
weep together we are two。 Of two to make one； which yet two shall be； Is
thy creation's problem； deep； and true； To which thou only hold'st the
happy； hurting clue。
27。
No less than thou； O Father； do we need A God to friend each lonely
one of us。 As touch not in the sack two grains of seed； Touch no two hearts
in great worlds populous。 Outside the making God we cannot meet Him he
has made our brother： homeward； thus； To find our kin we first must turn
our wandering feet。
28。
It must be possible that the soul made Should absolutely meet the soul
that makes； Then； in that bearing soul； meet every other There also born；
each sister and each brother。 Lord； till I meet thee thus； life is delayed； I
am not I until that morning breaks； Not I until my consciousness eternal
wakes。
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