the diary of an old soul(一颗衰老灵魂的日记)-第6章
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heart； Feeling runs out of doors； or stands apart！ But such as I am； Lord；
take me as thou art。
18。
The word he then did speak； fits now as then； For the same kind of
men doth mock at it。 God…fools； God…drunkards these do call the men Who
think the poverty of their all not fit； Borne humbly by their art； their voice；
their pen； Save for its allness； at thy feet to fling； For whom all is unfit that
is not everything。
19。
O Christ； my life； possess me utterly。 Take me and make a little Christ
of me。 If I am anything but thy father's son； 'Tis something not yet from
the darkness won。 Oh； give me light to live with open eyes。 Oh； give me
life to hope above all skies。 Give me thy spirit to haunt the Father with my
cries。
20。
'Tis hard for man to rouse his spirit up It is the human creative agony；
Though but to hold the heart an empty cup； Or tighten on the team the
rigid rein。 Many will rather lie among the slain Than creep through narrow
ways the light to gain Than wake the will； and be born bitterly。
21。
But he who would be born again indeed； Must wake his soul
unnumbered times a day； And urge himself to life with holy greed； Now
ope his bosom to the Wind's free play； And now； with patience forceful；
hard； lie still； Submiss and ready to the making will； Athirst and empty； for
God's breath to fill。
22。
All times are thine whose will is our remede。 Man turns to thee； thou
hast not turned away； The look he casts； thy labour that did breed It is
thy work； thy business all the day： That look； not foregone fitness； thou
dost heed。 For duty absolute how be fitter than now？ Or learn by
shunning？Lord； I come； help thou。
23。
Ever above my coldness and my doubt Rises up something； reaching
forth a hand： This thing I know； but cannot understand。 Is it the God in me
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that rises out Beyond my self； trailing it up with him； Towards the spirit…
home； the freedom…land； Beyond my conscious ken； my near horizon's
brim？
24。
O God of man； my heart would worship all My fellow men； the flashes
from thy fire； Them in good sooth my lofty kindred call； Born of the same
one heart； the perfect sire； Love of my kind alone can set me free； Help me
to welcome all that come to me； Not close my doors and dream solitude
liberty！
25。
A loving word may set some door ajar Where seemed no door； and that
may enter in Which lay at the heart of that same loving word。 In my still
chamber dwell thou always； Lord； Thy presence there will carriage true
afford； True words will flow； pure of design to win； And to my men my
door shall have no bar。
26。
My prayers； my God； flow from what I am not； I think thy answers
make me what I am。 Like weary waves thought follows upon thought； But
the still depth beneath is all thine own； And there thou mov'st in paths to
us unknown。 Out of strange strife thy peace is strangely wrought； If the
lion in us praythou answerest the lamb。
27。
So bound in selfishness am I； so chained； I know it must be glorious to
be free But know not what； full…fraught； the word doth mean。 By loss on
loss I have severely gained Wisdom enough my slavery to see； But liberty；
pure； absolute； serene； No fre 雜 t…visioned slave has ever seen。
28。
For； that great freedom how should such as I Be able to imagine in
such a self？ Less hopeless far the miser man might try To image the
delight of friend…shared pelf。 Freedom is to be like thee； face and heart； To
know it； Lord； I must be as thou art； I cannot breed the imagination high。
29。
Yet hints come to me from the realm unknown； Airs drift across the
twilight border land； Odoured with life； and as from some far strand Sea…
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murmured； whispers to my heart are blown That fill me with a joy I cannot
speak； Yea； from whose shadow words drop faint and weak： Thee； God； I
shadow in that region grand。
30。
O Christ； who didst appear in Judah land； Thence by the cross go back
to God's right hand； Plain history； and things our sense beyond； In thee
together come and correspond： How rulest thou from the undiscovered
bourne The world…wise world that laughs thee still to scorn？ Please； Lord；
let thy disciple understand。
31。
'Tis heart on heart thou rulest。 Thou art the same At God's right hand
as here exposed to shame； And therefore workest now as thou didst then
Feeding the faint divine in humble men。 Through all thy realms from thee
goes out heart…power； Working the holy； satisfying hour； When all shall
love； and all be loved again。
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JUNE。
1。
FROM thine； as then； the healing virtue goes Into our heartsthat is
the Father's plan。 》From heart to heart it sinks； it steals； it flows； 》From
these that know thee still infecting those。 Here is my heartfrom thine；
Lord； fill it up； That I may offer it as the holy cup Of thy communion to
my every man。
2。
When thou dost send out whirlwinds on thy seas； Alternatest thy
lightning with its roar； Thy night with morning； and thy clouds with stars
Or； mightier force unseen in midst of these； Orderest the life in every airy
pore； Guidest men's efforts； rul'st mishaps and jars； 'Tis only for their
hearts； and nothing more。
3。
This； this alone thy father careth for That men should live hearted
throughout with thee Because the simple； only life thou art； Of the very
truth of living； the pure heart。 For this； deep waters whelm the fruitful lea；
Wars ravage； famine wastes； plague withers； nor Shall cease till men have
chosen the better part。
4。
But； like a virtuous medicine； self…diffused Through all men's hearts
thy love shall sink and float； Till every feeling false； and thought unwise；
Selfish； and seeking； shall； sternly disused； Wither； and die； and shrivel up
to nought； And Christ； whom they did hang 'twixt earth and skies； Up in
the inner world of men arise。
5。
Make me a fellow worker with thee； Christ； Nought else befits a God…
born energy； Of all that's lovely； only lives the highest； Lifing the rest that
it shall never die。 Up I would be to help theefor thou liest Not； linen…
swathed in Joseph's garden…tomb； But walkest crowned； creation's heart
and bloom。
6。
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My God； when I would lift my heart to thee； Imagination instantly
doth set A cloudy something； thin； and vast； and vague； To stand for him
who is the fact of me； Then up the Will； and doth her weakness plague To
pay the heart her duty and her debt； Showing the face that hearkeneth to
the plea。
7。
And hence it comes that thou at times dost seem To fade into an image
of my mind； I； dreamer； cover； hide thee up with dream； Thee； primal；
individual entity！ No likeness will I seek to frame or find； But cry to that
which thou dost choose to be； To that which is my sight； therefore I cannot
see。
8。
No likeness？ Lo； the Christ！ Oh； large Enough！ I see； yet fathom not
the face he wore。 He isand out of him there is no stuff To make a man。
Let fail me every spark Of blissful vision on my pathway rough； I have
seen much； and trust the perfect more； While to his feet my faith crosses
the wayless dark。
9。
Faith is the human shadow of thy might。 Thou art the one self…perfect
life； and we Who trust thy life； therein join on to thee； Taking our part in
self…creating light。 To trust is to step forward out of the night To beto
share in the outgoing Will That lives and is； because outgoing still。
10。
I am lost before thee； Father！ yet I will Claim of thee my birthright
ineffable。 Thou lay'st it on me； son； to claim thee； sire； To that which thou
hast made me； I aspire； To thee； the sun； upflames thy kindled fire。 No
man presumes in that to which he was born； Less than the gift to claim；
would be the giver to scorn。
11。
Henceforth all things thy dealings are with me For out of thee is
nothing； or can be； And all things are to draw us home to thee。 What
matter that the knowers scoffing say； 〃This is old folly； plain to the new
day〃？ If thou be such as thou； and they as they； Unto thy Let there be；
they still must answer Nay。
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12。
They will not； therefore cannot； do not know him。 Nothing they could
know； could be God。 In sooth； Unto the true alone exists the truth。 They
say well； saying Nature doth not show him： Truly she shows not what she
cannot show； And they deny the thing they cannot know。 Who sees a glory；
towards it will go。
13。
Faster no step moves God because the fool Shouts to the universe God
there is none； The blindest man will not preach out the sun； Though on his
darkness he should found a school。 It may be； when he finds he is not dead；
Though world and body； sight and sound are fled； Some eyes may open in
his foolish head。
14。
When I am very weary with hard thought； And yet the question burns
and is not quenched； My heart grows cool when to remembrance wrought
That thou who know'st the light…born answer sought Know'st too the dark
where the doubt lies entrenched Know'st with what seemings I am sore
perplexed； And that with thee I wait； nor needs my soul be vexed。
15。
Who sets himself not sternly to be good； Is but a fool； who judgment
of true things Has none； however oft the claim renewed。 And he who
thinks； in his gr
