the heir of redclyffe-第102章
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knew as well as she did; and she could hardly refrain from a great
outburst of sobbing as she thought what joy its arrival had hitherto
been。
Suddenly Bustle bounded away; and as Charlotte stood trying to compose
herself enough to return to the drawing…room; she heard the poor fellow
whining to be let in at Guy's bed…room door。 At the same time the
drawing…room door opened; and anxious that Amy should neither see nor
hear him; she ran after him; admitted him; and shut herself in with him
in the dark; where; with her hands in his long silky curls; and sitting
on the ground; she sobbed over him as long as he would submit to her
caresses。
Amabel meantime returned to her room; and looked round on its well…
known aspect with a sad smile; as she thought of the prayer with which
she had quitted it on her bridal day; and did not feel as if it had
been unanswered; for surely the hand of a Father had been with her to
support her through her great affliction。
Though she said she was very well; her mother made her go to bed at
once; and Laura attended on her with a sort of frightened; respectful
tenderness; hardly able to bear her looks of gratitude。 The first time
the two sisters were alone; Amabel said; 'Philip is much better。'
Laura; who was settling some things on the table; started back and
coloured; then; unable to resist the desire of hearing of him; looked
earnestly at her sister。
'He is gone to Corfu;' continued Amabel。 'He only kept Arnaud three
days after we were gone; and Arnaud overtook us at Geneva; saying his
strength had improved wonderfully。 Will you give me my basket? I
should like to read you a piece of a note he sent me。'
Laura brought it; and Amabel; holding her hand; looked up at her face;
which she vainly tried to keep in order。 'Dearest; I have been very
sorry for you; and so has Guy。'
'Amy!' and Laura found herself giving way to her tears; in spite of all
her previous exhortations to Charlotte; about self…control; 'my own;
own sister!' To have Amy at home was an unspeakable comfort。
'Papa and mamma were both as kind as possible to Philip;' continued
Amabel; 'but they could not bear to enter on _that_。 So I told him you
had told all; and he was very glad。'
'He was not displeased at my betraying him?' exclaimed Laura。 'Oh; no!
he was glad; he said it was a great relief; for he was very anxious
about you; Laura。 He has been so kind to me;' said Amabel; so
earnestly; that Laura received another comfort; that of knowing that
her sister's indignation against him had all passed by。 'Now I will
read you what he says。 You see his writing is quite itself again。'
But Laura observed that Amabel only held towards her the 'Lady
Morville' on the outside; keeping the note to herself; and reading; 'I
have continued to gain strength since you went; so that there is no
further need of detaining Arnaud。 I have twice been out of doors; and
am convinced that I am equal to the journey; indeed; it is hardly
possible for me to endure remaining here any longer。' She read no
more; but folded it up; saying; 'I had rather no one saw the rest。 He
makes himself so unhappy about that unfortunate going to Sondrio; that
he says what is only painful to hear。 I am glad he is able to join his
regiment; for a change will be the best thing for him。'
She laid her head on the pillow as if she had done with the subject;
and Laura did not venture to pursue it; but went down to hear her
mother's account of her。
Mrs。 Edmonstone was feeling it a great comfort to have her son to talk
to again; and availed herself of it to tell him of Philip; while Laura
was absent; and then to return to speak of Amy on Laura's re…entrance。
She said; all through the journey; Amy had been as passive and tranquil
as possible; chiefly leaning back in the carriage in silence; excepting
that when they finally left the view of the snowy mountains; she gazed
after them as long as the least faint cloud…like summit was visible。
Still she could not sleep; except that now and then she dozed a little
in the carriage; but at night she heard every hour strike in turn; and
lay awake through all; nor had she shed one tear since her mother had
joined her。 Mrs。 Edmonstone's anxiety was very great; for she said she
knew Amy must pay for that unnatural calmness; and the longer it was
before it broke down; the worse it would be for her。 However; she was
at home; that was one thing to be thankful for; and happen what might;
it could not be as distressing as if it had been abroad。
Another night of 'calm unrest;' and Amabel rose in the morning; at her
usual hour; to put on the garments of her widowhood; where she had last
stood as a bride。 Charles was actually startled by her entering the
dressing…room; just as she used to do; before breakfast; to read with
him; and her voice was as steady as ever。 She breakfasted with the
family; and came up afterwards with Laura; to unpack her dressing…case;
and take out the little treasures that she and her husband had enjoyed
buying in the continental towns; as presents for the home party。
All this; for which she had previously prepared herself; she underwent
as quietly as possible; but something unexpected came on her。
Charlotte; trying to pet and comfort her in every possible way; brought
in all the best flowers still lingering in the garden; and among them a
last blossom of the Noisette rose; the same of which Guy had been
twisting a spray; while he first told her of his love。
It was too much。 It recalled his perfect health and vigour; his light
activity; and enjoyment of life; and something came on her of the
sensation we feel for an insect; one moment full of joyous vitality;
the next; crushed and still。 She had hitherto thought of his feverish
thirst and fainting weariness being at rest; and felt the relief; or
else followed his spirit to its repose; and rejoiced; but now the whole
scene brought back what he once was; his youthful; agile frame; his
eyes dancing in light; his bounding step; his gay whistle; the strong
hand that had upheld her on the precipice; the sure foot that had
carried aid to the drowning sailors; the arm that was to have been her
stay for life; all came on her in contrast withdeath! The thought
swept over her; carrying away every other; and she burst into tears。
The tears would have their course; she could not restrain them when
once they began; and her struggles to check them only brought an
increase of them。 Her sobs grew so violent that Laura; much alarmed;
made a sign to Charlotte to fetch her mother; and Mrs。 Edmonstone;
coming in haste; found it was indeed the beginning of a frightful
hysterical attack。 The bodily frame had been overwrought to obey the
mental firmness and composure; and now nature asserted her rights; the
hysterics returned again and again; and when it seemed as if exhaustion
had at length produced quiet; the opening of a door; or a sound in the
distance; would renew all again。
It was not till night had closed in that Mrs。 Edmonstone was at all
satisfied about her; and had at length the comfort of seeing her fall
into a sound deep sleep; such an unbroken dreamless sleep as had
scarcely visited her since she first went to Recoara。 Even this sleep
did not restore her; she became very unwell; and both Dr。 Mayerne and
her mother insisted on her avoiding the least exertion or agitation。
She was quite submissive; only begging earnestly to be allowed to see
Mr。 Ross; saying she knew it would do her good rather than harm; and
promising to let him leave her the instant she found it too much for
her; and though Mrs。 Edmonstone was reluctant and afraid; they agreed
that as she was so reasonable and docile; she ought to be allowed to
judge for herself。
She begged that he might come after church on All Saints' day。 He
came; and after his first greeting of peace; Mrs。 Edmonstone signed to
him to read at once; instead of speaking to her。 The beautiful lesson
for the day overcame Mrs。 Edmonstone so much that she was obliged to go
out of Amabel's sight; but as the words were read; Amy's face recovered
once more the serenity that had been swept away by the sight of the
flowers。 Peace had returned; and when the calm every…day words of the
service were over; she held out her hand to Mr。 Ross; and said; 'Thank
you; that was very nice。 Now talk to me。'
It was a difficult request; but Mr。 Ross understood her; and talked to
her as she sought; in a gentle; deep; high strain of hope and faith;
very calm and soothing; and with a fatherly kindness that was very
pleasant from him who had baptized her; taught her; and whom she had
last seen blessing her and her husband。 It ended by her looking up to
him when it was time for him to go; and saying; 'Thank you。 You will
come again when you have time; I hope。 My love to dear Mary; I should
like to see her soon; but I knew you would do me more good than
anybody; and know better how it feels。'
Mr。 Ross knew she meant that he must better understand her loss;
because he was a widower; and was greatly touched; though he only
answered by a blessing; a farewell; and a promise to come very soon to
see her again。
Amabel was right; the peace which he had recalled; and the power of
resignation that had returned; had a better effect on her than all her
mother's precautions; she began to improve; and in a few days more was
able to leave her bed; and lie on the sofa in the dressing…room; though
she was still so weak and languid that this was as much as she could
attempt。 Any exertion was to be carefully guarded against; and her
tears now flowed so easily; that she was obliged to keep a check on
them lest they might again overpower her。 Mr。 Ross came again and
again; and she was able to tell him much of the grounds for her great
happiness in Guy; hear how entirely he had understood him; and be
assured that she had done right; and not taken an undue responsibility
on herself by the argument she had used to summon Philip; that last
evening。 She had begun to make herself uneasy about this; for she said
she believed she was thinking of nothing but Guy; and had acted on
impulse; and she was very glad Mr。 Ross did not think it wrong; while
Mr。 Ross meanwhile was thinking how fears and repentance mingle with
the purest sweetest; holiest deeds。
She was able now to take pleasure in seeing Mary Ross; she wrote to
Philip at Corfu; and sent for Markham to begin to settle the executor's
business。 Poor Markham! the Edmonstones thought he looked ten years
older when he arrived; and after his inquiry for Lady Morville; his
grunt almost amounted to a sob。 The first thing he did was to give
Mrs。 Edmonstone