the heir of redclyffe-第103章
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grunt almost amounted to a sob。 The first thing he did was to give
Mrs。 Edmonstone a note; and a little box sent from Mrs。 Ashford。 The
note was to say that Mrs。 Ashford had intended for her wedding present;
a little cross made out of part of the wood of the wreck; which she now
thought it beat to send to Mrs。 Edmonstone; that she might judge
whether Lady Morville would like to see it。
Mrs。 Edmonstone's judgment was to carry it at once to Amabel; and she
was right; for the pleasure she took in it was indescribable。 She
fondled it; set it up by her on her little table; made Charlotte put it
in different places that she might see what point of view suited it
best; had it given back to her; held it in her hands caressingly; and
said she must write at once to Mrs。 Ashford to thank her for
understanding her so well。 There was scarcely one of the mourners to
be pitied more than Markham; for the love he had set on Sir Guy had
been intense; compounded of feudal affection; devoted admiration; and
paternal careand that he; the very flower of the whole race; should
thus have been cut down in the full blossom of his youth and hopes; was
almost more than the old man could bear or understand。 It was a great
sorrow; too; that he should be buried so far away from his forefathers;
and the hearing it was by his own desire; did not satisfy him; he
sighed over it still; and seemed to derive a shade of comfort only when
he was told there was to be a tablet in Redclyffe church to the memory
of Guy; sixth baronet。
In the evening Markham became very confidential with Charles; telling
him about the grievous mourning and lamentation at Redclyffe; when the
bells rung a knell instead of greeting the young master and his bride;
and how there was scarcely one in the parish that did not feel as if
they had lost a son or a brother。 He also told more and more of Sir
Guy's excellence; and talked of fears of his own; especially last
Christmas; that the boy was too unlike other people; too good to live;
and lastly; he indulged in a little abuse of Captain Morville; which
did Charles's heart good; at the same time as it amused him to think
how Markham would recollect it; when he came to hear of Laura's
engagement。
In the course of the next day; Markham had his conference with Lady
Morville in the dressing…room; and brought her two or three precious
parcels; which he would not; for the world; have given into any other
hands。 He could hardly bear to look at her in her widow's cap; and
behaved to her with a manner varying between his deference and respect
to the Lady of Redclyffe; and his fatherly fondness for the wife of
'his boy。' As to her legal powers; he would have thought them
foolishly bestowed; if they had been conferred by any one save his own
Sir Guy; and he began by not much liking to act with her; but he found
her so clear…headed; that he was much surprised to find a woman could
have so much good sense; and began to look forward with some
satisfaction to being her prime minister。 They understood each other
very well; Amabel's good sense and way of attending to the one matter
in hand; kept her from puzzling and alarming herself by thinking she
had more to do than she could ever understand or accomplish; she knew
it was Guy's work; and a charge he had given her;a great proof of his
confidence;and she did all that was required of her very well; so
that matters were put in train to be completed when she should be of
age; in the course of the next January。
When Markham left her she was glad to be alone; and to open her
parcels。 There was nothing here to make her hysterical; for she was
going to contemplate the living soul; and felt almost; as if it was
again being alone with her husband。 There were his most prized and
used books; covered with marks and written notes; there was Laura's
drawing of Sintram; which had lived with him in his rooms at Oxford;
there was a roll of music; and there was his desk。 The first thing
when she opened it was a rough piece of spar; wrapped in paper; on
which was written; 'M。 A。 D。; Sept。 18。' She remembered what he had
told her of little Marianne's gift。 The next thing made her heart
thrill; for it was a slip of pencilling in her own writing; 'Little
things; on little wings; bear little souls to heaven。'
Her own letters tied up together; those few that she had written in the
short time they were separated just before their marriage! Could that
be only six months ago? A great bundle of Charles's and of Mrs。
Edmonstone's; those she might like to read another time; but not now。
Many other papers letters signed S。 B。 Dixon; which she threw aside;
notes of lectures; and memoranda; only precious for the handwriting;
but when she came to the lower division; she found it full of verses;
almost all the poetry he had ever written。
There were the classical translations that used to make him inaccurate;
a scrap of a very boyish epic about King Arthur; beginning with a storm
at Tintagel; sundry half ballads; the verses he was suspected of; and
never would show; that first summer at Hollywell; and a very touching
vision of his fair young mother。 Except a translation or two; some
words written to suit their favourite airs (a thing that used to seem
to come as easily to him as singing to a bird); and a few lively mock
heroic accounts of walks or parties; which had all been public
property; there was no more that she could believe to have been
composed till last year; for he was more disposed to versify in sorrow
than in joy。 There were a good many written during his loneliness; for
his reflections had a tendency to flow into verse; and pouring them out
thus had been a great solace。 The lines were often imperfect and
irregular; but not one that was not deep; pure; and genuine; and here
and there scattered with passages of exquisite beauty and harmony; and
full of power and grace。 No one could have looked at them without
owning in them the marks of a thorough poet; but this was not what the
wife was seeking; and when she perceived it; though it made her face
beam with a sort of satisfied pride; it was a secondary thing。 She was
studying not his intellect; but his soul; she did not care whether he
would have been a poet; what she looked for was the record of the
sufferings and struggles of the sad six months when his character was
established; strengthened; and settled。
She found it。 There was much to which she alone had the clue; too
deep; and too obscurely hinted; to be understood at a glance。 She met
with such evidence of suffering as made her shudder and weep; tokens of
the dark thoughts that had gathered round him; of the manful spirit of
penitence and patience that had been his stay; and of the gleams that
lighted his darkest hours; and showed he had never been quite forsaken。
Now and then came a reference which brought home what he had told her;
how the thought of his Verena had cheered him when he dared not hope
she would be restored。 Best of all were the lines written when the
radiance of Christmas was; once for all; dispersing the gloom; and the
vision opening on him; which he was now realizing。 In reading them;
she felt the same marvellous sympathy of subdued wondering joy in the
victory of which she had partaken as she knelt beside his death…bed。
These were the last。 He had been too happy for poetry; except one or
two scraps in Switzerland; and these had been hers from the time she
had detected them。
No wonder Amabel almost lived on those papers! It would not be too
much to say she was very happy in her own way when alone with them; the
desk on a chair by her sofa。 They were too sacred for any one else;
she did not for many weeks show one even to her mother; but to her they
were like a renewal of his presence; soothing the craving after him
that had been growing on her ever since the first few days when his
sustaining power had not passed away。 As she sorted them; and made out
their dates; finding fresh stores of meaning at each fresh perusal she
learnt through them; as well as through her own trial; so patiently
borne; to enter into his character even more fully than when he was in
her sight。 Mrs。 Edmonstone; who had at first been inclined to dread
her constant dwelling on them; soon perceived that they were her great
aids through this sad winter。
She had much pleasure in receiving the portrait; which was sent her by
Mr。 Shene。 It was a day or two before she could resolve to look at it;
or feel that she could do so calmly。 It was an unfinished sketch;
taken more with a view to the future picture than to the likeness; but
Guy's was a face to be better represented by being somewhat idealized;
than by copying merely the material form of the features。 An ordinary
artist might have made him like a Morville; but Mr。 Shene had shown all
that art could convey of his individual self; with almost one of his
unearthly looks。 The beautiful eyes; with somewhat of their peculiar
lightsomeness; the flexible look of the lip; the upward pose of the
head; the set of that lock of hair that used to wave in the wind; the
animated position; 'just ready for a start;' as Charles used to call
it; were recalled as far as was in the power of chalk and crayon; but
so as to remind Amabel of him more as one belonging to heaven than to
earth。 The picture used to be on her mantel…shelf all night; the
shipwreck cross before it; and Sintram and Redclyffe on each side; and
she brought it into the dressing…room with her in the morning; setting
it up opposite to the sofa; before settling herself。
Her days were much alike。 She felt far from well; or capable of
exertion; and was glad it was thought right to keep her entirely
upstairs; she only wished to spare her mother anxiety; by being
submissive to her care; in case these cares should be the last for her。
She did not dwell on the future; nor ask herself whether she looked for
life or death。 Guy had bidden her not desire the last; and she
believed she did not form a wish; but there was repose to her in the
belief that she ought not to conceal from herself that there was more
than ordinary risk; and that it was right to complete all her affairs
in this world; and she was silent when her mother tried to interest her
in prospects that might cheer her; as if afraid to fasten on them; and
finding more peace in entire submission; than in feeding herself on
hope that must be coupled with fear。
Christmas…day was not allowed to pass without being a festival for her;
in her quiet room; where she lay; full of musings on his lonely
Christmas night last year; his verses folded among her precious books;
and the real joy of the season more within her gras