尤利西斯-第146章

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to　make　it　up　any　time　I　know　how　Id　even　supposing　he　got　in　with　her　again　and　was　going　out　to　see　her　somewhere　Id　know　if　he　refused　to　eat　the　onions　I　know　plenty　of　ways　ask　him　to　tuck　down　the　collar　of　my　blouse　or　touch　him　with　my　veil　and　gloves　on　going　out　1　kiss　then　would　send　them　all　spinning　however　alright　well　seen　then　let　him　go　to　her　she　of　course　would　only　be　too　delighted　to　pretend　shes　mad　in　love　with　him　that　I　wouldnt　so　much　mind　Id　just　go　to　her　and　ask　her　do　you　love　him　and　look　her　square　in　the　eyes　she　couldnt　fool　me　but　he　might　imagine　he　was　and　make　a　declaration　with　his　plabbery　kind　of　a　manner　to　her　like　he　did　to　me　though　I　had　the　devils　own　job　to　get　it　out　of　him　though　I　liked　him　for　that　it　showed　he　could　hold　in　and　wasnt　to　be　got　for　the　asking　he　was　on　the　pop　of　asking　me　too　the　night　in　the　kitchen　I　was　rolling　the　potato　cake　theres　something　I　want　to　say　to　you　only　for　I　put　him　off　letting　on　I　was　in　a　temper　with　my　hands　and　arms　full　of　pasty　flour　in　any　case　I　let　out　too　much　the　night　before　talking　of　dreams　so　I　didnt　want　to　let　him　know　more　than　was　good　for　him　she　used　to　be　always　embracing　me　Josie　whenever　he　was　there　meaning　him　of　course　glauming　me　over　and　when　I　said　I　washed　up　and　down　as　far　as　possible　asking　me　did　you　wash　possible　the　women　are　always　egging　on　to　that　putting　it　on　thick　when　hes　there　they　know　by　his　sly　eye　blinking　a　bit　putting　on　the　indifferent　when　they　e　out　with　something　the　kind　he　is　what　spoils　him　I　dont　wonder　in　the　least　because　he　was　very　handsome　at　that　time　trying　to　look　like　lord　Byron　I　said　I　liked　though　he　was　too　beautiful　for　a　man　and　he　was　a　little　before　we　got　engaged　afterwards　though　she　didnt　like　it　so　much　the　day　I　was　in　fits　of　laughing　with　the　giggles　I　couldnt　stop　about　all　my　hairpins　falling　one　after　another　with　the　mass　of　hair　I　had　youre　always　in　great　humour　she　said　yes　because　it　grigged　her　because　she　knew　what　it　meant　because　I　used　to　tell　her　a　good　bit　of　what　went　on　between　us　not　all　but　just　enough　to　make　her　mouth　water　but　that　wasnt　my　fault　she　didnt　darken　the　door　much　after　we　were　married　I　wonder　what　shes　got　like　now　after　living　with　that　dotty　husband　of　hers　she　had　her　face　beginning　to　look　drawn　and　run　down　the　last　time　I　saw　her　she　must　have　been　just　after　a　row　with　him　because　I　saw　on　the　moment　she　was　edging　to　draw　down　a　conversation　about　husbands　and　talk　about　him　to　run　him　down　what　was　it　she　told　me　O　yes　that　sometimes　he　used　to　go　to　bed　with　his　muddy　boots　on　when　the　maggot　takes　him　just　imagine　having　to　get　into　bed　with　a　thing　like　that　that　might　murder　you　any　moment　what　a　man　well　its　not　the　one　way　everyone　goes　mad　Poldy　anyway　whatever　he　does　always　wipes　his　feet　on　the　mat　when　he　es　in　wet　or　shine　and　always　blacks　his　own　boots　too　and　he　always　takes　off　his　hat　when　he　es　up　in　the　street　like　that　and　now　hes　going　about　in　his　slippers　to　look　for　#10000　for　a　postcard　up　up　O　Sweetheart　May　wouldnt　a　thing　like　that　simply　bore　you　stiff　to　extinction　actually　too　stupid　even　to　take　his　boots　off　now　what　could　you　make　of　a　man　like　that　Id　rather　die　20　times　over　than　marry　another　of　their　sex　of　course　hed　never　find　another　woman　like　me　to　put　up　with　him　the　way　I　do　know　me　e　sleep　with　me　yes　and　he　knows　that　too　at　the　bottom　of　his　heart　take　that　Mrs　Maybrick　that　poisoned　her　husband　for　what　I　wonder　in　love　with　some　other　man　yet　it　was　found　out　on　her　wasnt　she　the　downright　villain　to　go　and　do　a　thing　like　that　of　course　some　men　can　be　dreadfully　aggravating　drive　you　mad　and　always　the　worst　word　in　the　world　what　do　they　ask　us　to　marry　them　for　if　were　so　bad　as　all　that　es　to　yes　because　they　cant　get　on　without　us　white　Arsenic　she　put　in　his　tea　off　flypaper　wasnt　it　I　wonder　why　they　call　it　that　if　I　asked　him　hed　say　its　from　the　Greek　leave　us　as　wise　as　we　were　before　she　must　have　been　madly　in　love　with　the　other　fellow　to　run　the　chance　of　being　hanged　O　she　didnt　care　if　that　was　her　nature　what　could　she　do　besides　theyre　not　brutes　enough　to　go　and　hang　a　woman　surely　are　they　
theyre　all　so　different　Boylan　talking　about　the　shape　of　my　foot　he　noticed　at　once　even　before　he　was　introduced　when　I　was　in　the　D　B　C　with　Poldy　laughing　and　trying　to　listen　I　was　waggling　my　foot　we　both　ordered　2　teas　and　plain　bread　and　butter　I　saw　him　looking　with　his　two　old　maids　of　sisters　when　I　stood　up　and　asked　the　girl　where　it　was　what　do　I　care　with　it　dropping　out　of　me　and　that　black　closed　breeches　he　made　me　buy　takes　you　half　an　hour　to　let　them　down　wetting　all　myself　always　with　some　brandnew　fad　every　other　week　such　a　long　one　I　did　I　forgot　my　suede　gloves　on　the　seat　behind　that　I　never　got　after　some　robber　of　a　woman　and　he　wanted　me　to　put　it　in　the　Irish　Times　lost　in　the　ladies　lavatory　D　B　C　Dame　street　finder　return　to　Mrs　Marion　Bloom　and　I　saw　his　eyes　on　my　feet　going　out　through　the　turning　door　he　was　looking　when　I　looked　back　and　I　went　there　for　tea　2　days　after　in　the　hope　but　he　wasnt　now　how　did　that　excite　him　because　I　was　crossing　them　when　we　were　in　the　other　room　first　he　meant　the　shoes　that　are　too　tight　to　walk　in　my　hand　is　nice　like　that　if　I　only　had　a　ring　with　the　stone　for　my　month　a　nice　aquamarine　Ill　stick　him　for　one　and　a　gold　bracelet　I　dont　like　my　foot　so　much　still　I　made　him　spend　once　with　my　foot　the　night　after　Goodwins　botchup　of　a　concert　so　cold　and　windy　it　was　well　we　had　that　rum　in　the　house　to　mull　and　the　fire　wasnt　black　out　when　he　asked　to　take　off　my　stockings　lying　on　the　hearthrug　in　Lombard　street　well　and　another　time　it　was　my　muddy　boots　hed　like　me　to　walk　in　all　the　horses　dung　I　could　find　but　of　course　hes　not　natural　like　the　rest　of　the　world　that　I　what　did　he　say　I　could　give　9　points　in　10　to　Katty　Lanner　and　beat　her　what　does　that　mean　I　asked　him　I　forget　what　he　said　because　the　stoppress　edition　just　passed　and　the　man　with　the　curly　hair　in　the　Lucan　dairy　thats　so　polite　I　think　I　saw　his　face　before　somewhere　I　noticed　him　when　I　was　tasting　the　butter　so　I　took　my　time　Bartell　dArcy　too　that　he　used　to　make　fun　of　when　he　menced　kissing　me　on　the　choir　stairs　after　I　sang　Gounods　Ave　Maria　what　are　we　waiting　for　O　my　heart　kiss　me　straight　on　the　brow　and　part　which　is　my　brown　part　he　was　pretty　hot　for　all　his　tinny　voice　too　my　low　notes　he　was　always　raving　about　if　you　can　believe　him　I　liked　the　way　he　used　his　mouth　singing　then　he　said　wasnt　it　terrible　to　do　that　there　in　a　place　like　that　I　dont　see　anything　so　terrible　about　it　Ill　tell　him　about　that　some　day　not　now　and　surprise　him　ay　and　Ill　take　him　there　and　show　him　the　very　place　too　we　did　it　so　now　there　you　are　like　it　or　lump　it　he　thinks　nothing　can　happen　without　him　knowing　he　hadnt　an　idea　about　my　mother　till　we　were　engaged　otherwise　hed　never　have　got　me　so　cheap　as　he　did　he　was　10　times　worse　himself　anyhow　begging　me　to　give　him　a　tiny　bit　cut　off　my　drawers　that　was　the　evening　ing　along　Kenilworth　square　he　kissed　me　in　the　eye　of　my　glove　and　I　had　to　take　it　off　asking　me　questions　is　it　permitted　to　inquire　the　shape　of　my　bedroom　so　I　let　him　keep　it　as　if　I　forgot　it　to　think　of　me　when　I　saw　him　slip　it　into　his　pocket　of　course　hes　mad　on　the　subject　of　drawers　thats　plain　to　be　seen　always　skeezing　at　those　brazenfaced　things　on　the　bicycles　with　their　skirts　blowing　up　to　their　navels　even　when　Milly　and　I　were　out　with　him　at　the　open　air　fete　that　one　in　the　cream　muslin　standing　right　against　the　sun　so　he　could　see　every　atom　she　had　on　when　he　saw　me　from　behind　following　in　the　rain　I　saw　him　before　he　saw　me　however　standing　at　the　corner　of　the　Harolds　cross　road　with　a　new　raincoat　on　him　with　the　muffler　in　the　Zingari　colours　to　show　off　his　plexion…and　the　brown　hat　looking　slyboots　as　usual　what　was　he　doing　there　where　hed　no　business　they　can　go　and　get　whatever　they　like　from　anything　at　all　with　a　skirt　on　it　and　were　not　to　ask　any　questions　but　they　want　to　know　where　were　you　where　are　you　going　I　could　feel　him　ing　along　skulking　after　me　his　eyes　on　my　neck　he　had　been　keeping　away　from　the　house　he　felt　it　was　getting　too　warm　for　him　so　I　half　turned　and　stopped　then　he　pestered　me　to　say　yes　till　I　took　off　my　glove　slowly　watching　him　he　said　my　openwork　sleeves　were　too　cold　for　the　rain　anything　for　an　excuse　to　put　his　hand　anear　me　drawers　drawers　the　whole　blessed　time　till　I　promised　to　give　him　the　pair　off　my　doll　to　carry　about　in　his　waistcoat　pocket　O　Maria　santissima　he　did　look　a　big　fool　dreeping　in　the　rain　splendid　set　of　teeth　he　had　made　me　hungry　to　look　at　them　and　beseeched　of　me　to　lift　the　orange　petticoat　I　had　on　with　sunray　pleats　that　there　was　nobody　he　Said　hed　kneel　down　in　the　wet　if　I　didnt　so　persevering　he　would　too　and　ruin　his　new　raincoat　you　never　know　what　freak　theyd　take　alone　with　you　theyre　so　savage　for　it　if　anyone　was　passing　so　I　lifted　them　a　bit　and　touched　his　trousers　outside　the　way　I　used　to　Gardner　after　with　my　ring　hand　to　keep　him　from　doing　worse　where　it　was　too　public　I　was　dying　to　find　out　was　he　circumcised　he　was　shaking　like　a　jelly　all　over　they　want　to　do　everything　too　quick　take　all　the　pleasure　out　if　it　and　father　waiting　all　the　time　for　his　dinner　he　told　me　to　say　I　left　my　purse　in　the　butchers　and　had　to　go　back　for　it　what　a　Deceiver　then　he　wrote　me　that　letter　with　all　those　words　in　it　how　could　he　have　the　face　to　any　woman　after　his　pany　manners　making　it　so　awkward　after　when　we　met　asking　me　have　I　offended　you　with　my　eyelids　down　of　course　he　saw　I　wasnt　he　had　a　few　brains　not　like　that　other　fool　Henry　Doyle　he　was　always　breaking　or　tearing　something　in　the　charades　I　hate　an　unlucky　man　and　if　I　knew　what　it　meant　of　course　I　had　to　say　no　for　form　sake　dont　understand　you　I　said　and　wasnt　it　natural　so　it　is　of　course　it　used　to　be　written　up　with　a　picture　of　a　womans　on　that　wall　in　Gibraltar　with　that　word　I　couldnt　find　anywhere　only　for　children　seeing　it　too　young　then　writing　a　letter　every　morning　sometimes　twice　a　day　I　liked　the　way　he　made　love　then　he　knew　the　way　to　take　a　woman　when　he　sent　me　the　8　big　poppies　because　mine　was　the　8th　then　I　wrote　the　night　he　kissed　my　heart　at　Dolphins　barn　I　couldnt　describe　it　simply　it　makes　you　feel　like　nothing　on　earth　but　he　never　knew　how　to　embrace　well　like　Gardner　I　hope　hell　e　on　Monday　as　he　said　at　the　same　time　four　I　hate　people　who　e　at　all　hours　answer　the　door　you　think　its　the　vegetables　then　its　somebody　and　you　all　undressed　or　the　door　of　the　filthy　sloppy　kitchen　blows　open　the　day　old　frostyface　Goodwin　called　about　the　concert　in　Lombard　street　and　I　just　after　dinner　all　flushed　and　tossed　with　boiling　old　stew　dont　look　at　me　professor　I　had　to　say　Im　a　fright　yes　but　he　was　a　real　old　gent　in　his　way　it　was　impossible　to　be　more　respectful　nobody　to　say　youre　out　you　have　to　peep　out　through　the　blind　like　the　messengerboy　today　I　thought　it　was　a　putoff　first　him　sending　the　port　and　the　peaches　first　and　I　was　just　beginning　to　yawn　with　nerves　thinking　he　was　trying　to